Jealousy.

I don't want to see you smile...unless it's from me.

Your laughter is painful to my ears when I don't know where it came from.

Happiness is a feeling I want you to discover with me.

And your heart should only beat for mine...

Your kisses should be cold unless they're on my lips.

Why are you looking at her with those eyes?

Love means nothing, unless the sentence ends with hate.

I don't want to be weak in front of you.. I don't care about anything...

But, you know that's not true, that's why I let you see me cry...

So, baby, can you please not smile when I'm not around?

Can your eyes stay dark until you see me?

I know deep down, once you trust someone like that, all that's left is pain...

My insecurities stay in my pocket, so I'm ready to have to say goodbye any moment.

How much do you guys talk?

She's my friend, I trust you all...

Except, once someone's with me, I know I can't trust them anymore,

Because to be with me, you have to lie to yourself and pretend you're sane.

When you say my name, you have to pretend that it doesn't sicken you... 

When you're holding me close at night, you have to keep yourself

From running away as fast as you can.

So, trust isn't an option in a mandatory world.

Why must I be such a monster?

Can't innocence survive?

Why must everything be twisted and misshapen?

Your eyes are like the moon as they follow me always,

And your words are like the seasons; ever changing. 

Maybe I'm okay, maybe I'm reasonable, maybe you're the reason

I can't be sane?

Maybe you're the one, who brings out the worst in me?

Maybe.

Still, please cry until I arrive. Then the sun will shine.

Reviews

[Just Cat]

Wow... jealousy can certainly overwhelm. It's a horrible thing though, although I think everyone is capable of it, even the most saintly of us.
The last stanza really speaks to me, the moon and the changing seasons part. Brilliant writing. And the green is a very apt colour for this piece.
Great writing! :)

[Kathryn]

I loved this. Great use of emotion, and coloured text. Lovely work, well done :)

[Hello, Goodbye]

it such a turbulent horrible emotion.. it captures the entirety of your person and curves your thinking into something unpleasant.. its a good write that elaborates on the illogical state of mind that ones obsession can turn to..

[Becky C Strukamp]

An amazing poem of jealousy. You penned this emotion well. I've had the green eyed beauty visit me a few times. It rips your heart out till it bleeds dry.

[Sleeping Maiden]

Simply breath-taking! This was just AMAZING! =D I loved it so much. You expressed the jealousy well, the horrid green eyed monster...
I love the imagery.. the flow and the emotions felt as I read this. It is very well written. Beautiful write!!

[nevermindfan1991]

Wow, just wow. This was an incredible poem about the poison called jealous. How it hazes our perceptions and increases our paranoia. I enjoyed reading and was enamored with it from the beginning. Great Job!

[Mr Alednac]

WOW That was a really really great poem right there I loved it!!!! and I loved the analogies you put there its really good!!! :)