I love you, I hate you - I know not which.

A Poem by Bubbles

I can't decide if I love you or hate you,
I have pondered long and hard, but I really don't know.
I love that your bravado hides a soft, caring heart beneath.
I hate your fiery words - straight, poisonous and true.
No matter how hard I try, they always hit the target -
Right into my heart.
I hate you. I love you. I know not which.

I decided a while ago to take a chance on you.
"I will try" I vowed, my valiant heart took a leap.
But now, I feel as though I burrowed into a ditch.
With a shrug, you abandoned me, without a backward glance,
You are smiling, laughing, never affected; I am questioning,
Hurting - I am sorely wounded.
I most definitely hate you.

You made me giggle, blush and smile,
I must admit you brought me joy - though it only lasted but awhile.
Your sentiment made me glow, I felt understood -
Though I would rather die than ever admit it.
Your spontaneity was delightful and hilarious,
Your lopsided grin made my heart pirouette.
I most definitely love you.

I refuse to believe I am weak, pathetic and vulnerable,
Therefore, I have placed sentinels guard over my heart.
I am fully equipped, I shall think of you no more!
Yet who am I kidding? I still love you. I still hate you.
There seems to be nothing I can do about it.
I love you. I hate you. I know not which.

© 2014 Bubbles

Author's Note

Please feel free to post your opinions and comments! At the moment, this is one of my favourite creations :)

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J Todd Underhill

Strong write! I like this piece because we have all had relationships like this and it shows you are a poet with mass appeal. Do you ever read live? I encourage you to check out our radio show www.worldpoetryopenmic.net our next broadcast is 11/7 if you would like to call in.