To Be Alone

To think I wanted to be alone...

I can admit it, that I dug my hole, I made my bed,

I'm the one who fell short of my goal, who'd rather be dead.

I'm the reckless youth that threw everything away,

without even the slightest regard for what anyone would say.

 

It's true in the end, with others, I was the one who could not trust,

and my deepset distaste has driven away feeling, I hardly even know lust...

 

Hate to say it, but I set myself up to be alone,

Hurts to say it, but it seems I'm better on my own.

So when you chose to be by my side,

chose to hold me when I cried,

Chose to mourn me when I died,

Did you know my love for you had grown?

 

Though you stand beside me every day,

and I gladly give you my all when you choose to stay,

I think one day you'll agree it'd be better for me to be alone.

 

It's wrong, but sometimes it's you I want to hate,

I put my frozen heart in your loving hands and realized it too late:

You're the one who brought my emotions back to life,

the one I want by my side forever and always as my wife.

 

Detached from this hollow world, the hollow dolls, the well constructed parasites,

To be alone I sealed off my mind and shut out all the burning luminescent lights.

I was fine withering away before I met you, before I kissed your lips,

before you'd taken me in your arms, before our fingers locked grips.

I was sure I'd die, didn't think I'd fall in love,

didn't think I'd be so caught up in reaching for a light above.

And now I've come to realize, I'm afraid to be alone,

And I'm finally coming to accept that with you I'll never be on my own...

 

It surprises me that I can cry...

even more that I can do it in the joy of having ever met you.

 

Hate to say it, but I set my self up to be alone,

Hurts to say it, but it seemed I'd be better on my own.

So when you chose to be by my side,

chose to hold me when I cried,

Chose to mourn me when I died,

Did you know my love for you had grown?

Author's Note

Originally, I had no intent of uploading this-it was meant ONLY for my gf...
I changed my mind because I figured it'd be a nice change of pace from my usual 'sadness misery death' crap...

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I liked this! I think it says a lot. The sturcture is perfect. The whole poem flowed so well. It was unique and I enjoyed it.

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You're never alone Demy.

Although sometimes I know it might feel like it. Perhaps an isolated existance keeps you. From a secret window you might watch a silicon world go by, but so do I. Know that isolation keeps me as well, it keeps me internally.

I know loneliness as well as you, and I know what it's like to feel worthless, conspired against by insensitive vagabonds. But you're not wothless Demy.

You have a gift. You've always had a gift. And its when you finally accept that, and realize how to use it, that I think you shall finally discover your own destiny.

-Dream