Falling down the Rabbit Hole

How I have been feeling as of late.

Falling as I try to escape the world, realizing too late that I have become what I never wanted to be.

Addicted to the life of obesity and laziness, topped off with instant gratification, only knowing what being spoiled is like from the past and now through the eyes of another.

Wanting to be so much and do so much without knowing how to go about it.

Dwelling upon the past, wishing I could change what was once to what might have been, dreaming the present away with thoughts of the past and imaginary dreams of the future.

Not knowing anymore which way to turn on the fork of life that I am presented with, sitting down trying to figure out the course at hand to only forget the reason I started the journey to begin with.

This never ending rabbit hole has begun to swallow me alive, as I delve deeper into the black, the darkness surrounding me as memories drive me to somewhere I have no recollection of, somewhere I can only imagine...