Why God?

This was wrote while im going thru a hard time in life, and find myself questioning everything i believe.. and coming to the conclusion that i need to change some things in my life and get on track with God

Speak to the mountain inside?
what if that mountain leaves you dried?
they say the faith of a mustard seed...
but what if your just to tired to believe?
build your house on the rock?
but the doubt just wont stop!
show others gods love
what if you feel none?
follow god, he will lead
wat if your blind, cant see?
trust in him and rely
wat if trust is hard to find?
i can do all things...
but there are so many!
he wont give us more than we can bear?
then why does life seem so unfair?
the demons even believe?
then why so hard for me?
count it joy when in various trials?
how could we be asked such a thing?
if you hear his voice dont harden your heart
but i just feel like im falling apart!
he gave himself for us, perfectness for sinfulness
yet why is it so hard to give ourselves to him?
let no one despise your youth
what a hard thing to do!
what ever you do do it heartily unto God
but i just dont feel like doing anything
all these things i remind myself
asking myself why i dont live by what i know
why i live a life of compromise and lies
he says he is with us in spirit
but sinful lives we live
why god why is it so hard
to live by what i know
instead of what my flesh wants
i do what i wish not to do
and wish to do what i do not do
a double minded man, unstable in all my ways
i shall not live this way all of my days!!
live comes life goes like a vapor He says
i think its time for a major change!
 

Author's Note

Please read and comment... and dont take this the wrong way, i believe in Jesus as my personal Savior and this was only wrote in a time of backsliding, when i was doubting everything i know i believe...