Life

I dont know why i dare
to try everyday to live
im going to fail i swear
why am i so negative?
Life seems to suck a little more each day
besides a few moments with him or her
i want to just go ahead and pass away
but they need/want me in their future
I declare, if it were not so
i would not even mind
id allow myself to go
and end this for all time
enjoy the blessings of heaven
in the presense of the lord jesus
who were it not for him, id not be forgiven
for all eternity to live and rejoice
but for now i must dred every moment
here on this earth in misery
from god, here sent
telling others to believe
however, i feel im missing my call
what could it be, my call that is
i have no idea at all
maybe this life is mere bliss
no it cant be, i know otherwise
i was sent here with some purpose
cant believe the devil's lies
but couldnt life just be peaceful as a rose??

at times i get so weary trying to find my way
but dont grow weary in well doing
thats what God's word says
well trying gets to boring!
I want to break free
my flesh to apese
yet thats not the way to go
God's will wont show...
he is our peace in the storms
but now that peace i dont feel
maybe im just not the norm
maybe the norm God doesnt reel?
I know there is a reason
i go thru all of this
it will only last a season
there is a reason watever it is..
God just show me
why am i here
where do you want me
what is your will?

Reviews

[Jenny Nelson]

I can identify with your sentiments. Nice job on "putting it all out there." Shows how eventhough there's someone to hang onto, it doesn't make this life any less darn near impossible to deal with a lot of times.