This Feeling I Hate

this is one of my best poems i think =)

“This Feeling I Hate.”

Feeling this way,

Is like the darkest of days.

Wishing and begging to be set free,

While tears stream down my face with a whimper and plea.

His words start to haunt me,

Giving me chills at an unusual degree.

They cut straight through my heart,

Breaking into pieces as it falls apart.

As I lay on this dark cold ground,

I listen to all the sounds.

Boom…Boom……………Boom!

My heart slows it’s beat,

Without him I am incomplete.

Having a sudden desire to just hear his voice,

For a moment my heart stops, realizing that’s not a choice.

I wished for all this to just end,

There was nothing left to defend.

He was gone………..forever.

No matter how hard I endeavor.

This feeling of despondency and depression,

Is killing me and stolen my discretion.

Then I started to think straight,

Realizing this was my fate.

Listening to the sound of the wind,

Blowing through my hair soft and kind.

The trees dancing in the night sky,

Now I knew it was time to say goodbye.

Placing the weapon to my head,

I knew I was dead.

As I pulled the trigger, 

My eyes quickly became bigger.

The world suddenly froze,

And the blood started to soak my clothes.

My hearing became faint,

The blood looked like thick red paint.

My body began to go numb,

And I knew what was to come.

It felt like it took hours to fall to the floor,

But I wasn’t sore.

My pain has washed away,

And I slowly start to decay.

My life was over, that I know,

Because my head took the blow.

I am finally set free,

And I hope he will see.

That I couldn’t live without his love,

But it’s too late, because I’m floating above.

Now this feeling that I hate,

Can rot with my corpse in a buried crate….

Reviews

[Bhushan Jagia]

Truly wonderful!!! I don't know if you ever had such a feeling for someone.. But its not rare to have such feelings...To put them in words, that too so beautifully is quite unique..Keep up the good work!!!

[salvador (camuel choisu..]

i can truly say this is one of the best pieces i have read in a while. A piece that frightened me as well as made interested in as i read along. Dark piece but i love it, keep it up.