Theres somethings you can't be taught

midnight mind rants

I've learned a lot in my life

From friends

From school

From personal experiences

From books

I learned how to make my own doctors appointments

How to pay bills

I learned how to swim

And ride a bike

I learned to read and write

But theres things that can't be taught 

No one taught me that sometimes at night an overwhelming sadness comes with it

It crushes you

Reminds you of everything you wish you could be

Reminds you of all the things you don't want to remember 

In the 8th grade my friend taught me that sometimes opening myself up

and letting all the pain bleed out will help the thoughts

but what she didn't tell me is how hard it was to stop once you started

how sometimes the thoughts didn't just happen at night anymore

I wasn't taught that the scars would be a constant reminder of everything you hate about yourself 

No one told me either that there are worse things than physical scars

My dad taught me how to treat a wound if you got hurt

I was never taught what to do when you hurt on the inside

The kind of hurt that makes your heart feel like its burst open and has been bled dry

How sometimes you feel like your chest is being crushed under an unknown weight

How your throat will close up and despite being able to feel your lungs fill and empty..you just can't breathe

I was taught what alcohol can do to a person

How it can change them

No one taught me the feeling of not being able to control my body

No one taught me what to do when I couldn't even talk

And someone was on top of me

I was taught to not trust strangers

But they failed to teach me what happens when you're 6 years old and someone you trust takes advantage of you

Takes something from you that there is no getting back

No one taught me the most valuable lessons I've had to learn

Sure, they could tell me how to prevent unwanted advances

I could read all i wanted to on depression and anxiety

But the emotions..and the sickness you feel in your stomach

How certain things send you over the edge now from triggers

No one could ever teach that.

Reviews

[A. Amos]

This was one interesting read, you shared your soul in words. Life is all about learning and gaining knowledge feeding the positive things in your mind and ignoring bad habits. Great write my friend...

[Stephen]

Yeah, no one teaches ..we get taught by us with the time cos, it's a time which grab our hand and we trail with the life. Yeah, I hear you .. It's totally a mind-rant but may be a heart-rant too at some places cos, it's heart which get hurt ... I hope everything's cool out there with you.

May you a have a nice day!