I AMA Poem by EmI am who shall not be named I have no mother, I have no father I have no brother or sister I live alone but with an aunt For the people who say They are my father and mother Are nowhere to be found They say I am too young to understand That mummy just wants to make some money Money to take care of me But can’t she see? I don’t need the money, I just want mummy She’s overseas they say She’s away in foreign She doesn’t see how people look at me funny Because let’s face it I have no mummy I don’t want phone calls or video messages I want the hugs and the kisses And mummy telling me to my face That I did good That I’m special I want mummy to be here So I can see her smiles And hear her laughs And hold her and tell her I love her I don’t want mummy in a place where I don’t know if she is safe Where I don’t know when I will ever see her again The day she left she told me loved me That she will be back for me That I won’t have to worry Because she is taking care of me My six year old mind cannot comprehend such a travesty Such a tragedy as the leaving of my mummy All it’s seeing is the tears my mummy shed When she gave me my teddy and told me soon she will see me Ten years later, I have not seen mummy I have seen her money but I have not seen mummy I have heard her stories and listened to her comedies But never once since that day have I actually seen my mummy I have not hugged her, I have not kissed her She hasn’t held me while I cried when aunty died She didn’t tell me it will be alright when I had to hide So much she missed out on Because she wanted to be abroad To give me a life I never asked for What did I do wrong? Did I sing or cry too loud Even at sixteen I still don’t get Where she got the idea that leaving me was for my own good Leaving me in a country filled with catastrophe Leaving me to find friends who don’t care about me But care enough to give me what she didn’t give me The attention I seek, the love I crave The companionship that let’s face it Isn’t worth a damn thing But who cares right? I can do what I please, all I might Just for spite To give her a taste of what she left behind To go to a foreign land Never once thinking about the welfare of a child Who had no one to hold her hand No one to comfort her and reassure her Because let’s face it, all I am All I will ever be is a let down to my mummy Why else will she leave me? Why else will she never want to see me? Why else would she not care what happens me? Why else wouldn’t she want to see her grandbaby I won’t be like my mummy I won’t leave my baby to go search for something that has no guarantee I want my baby to have the life that I never had To have a life with a mummy there To have a life free of waiting and wanting Ad yearning and searching And crying and trying To be what I wanted to be for my absent mummy. © 2015 Em |
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Added on December 13, 2015 Last Updated on December 13, 2015 |