Worthless

Sometimes I don't know why

I fight to

Stay anymore.

It just doesn't seem worth it.

To be

wasting

the time of

others

with my life.

Everything is

blurry.

From.

The constant stream of tears.

That flow.

Throughout the day and night.

My pain is

Unbearable.

I am hit,

by a new wave of pain.

Everyday.

Everyday,

I face the reason for the pain.

Everyday i see it,

burns horribly.

Every part of my

heart

is sore,

aching,

And no where near bing numb.

Reviews

[Correspondence]

"Everything is blurry/From/The constant flow of tears" This poem is so deep and true to me. It sometimes makes me sad when I read pieces this raw and truthful, but then I go and look at my own writing and realize mine are just as sad. If you need anything; I'm just a mail send away :)

[Quietstorm]

This piece is very saddening. If this is your story I pray that you realize the value of your life, I pray that this dark place you find yourself in will exude with self love and light that will lead to new positive self discoveries.. stay inspired, stay positive, keep writing 😊

[Maxwell Ryder]

And nowhere near being numb?

[Wonderland Asylum]

Do you not understand the line?

[Nipplegrinder]

I hope you find your way out of the darkness. This is beautiful, though.

[H L Rose]

"I face the reason for the pain" I find this line really interesting. From my perspective, it seems to elude to something beyond the poem. This line in and of itself inspires a lot of feelings to me. Writing is such a blessing as an outlet and so is a platform like this because it can help us connect with each other through this outlet. Thank you for sharing.

[An owl on the moon]

Every line carries such a haunted space of the soul... aching in the reading, wanting so much for the life to rise, like a spring garden from winter's cold barrenness. May the light, the life rise soon to fill your pages with poetic spring... where you belong.

[barleygirl]

I have to take you at your word here, becuz this sounds hauntingly realistic. I’m sorry you feel this way, if this is your own story. I’ve fought off such feelings most of my life (I’m almost 62) & finally now in my late years, being disabled & very limited in my life, now I don’t have depression anymore! Now is when I finally started living in the simple pleasures of each day. I want to leave this world, but God won’t let me. I guess I have more work to do. I hope you can find such reasons to keep pushing onward thru the pain. Yes it can truly cause physical pain when your mood is so down. Living in pain is a b***h & I don’t know why it happens to some of us. You do a great job of showing how it feels vividly. Keep fighting! (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Dara]

I am so very touched and saddened by your words and hope that you will know that you are indeed a very special person with so much to offer. You mention that you "face the reason for the pain everyday" but I am not sure what it is. Please, reach out to someone to talk about it. My brother has suffered from depression most of his life and confessed that most people cannot even tell when he is feeling his lowest. You must let others know and this heart wrenching write is a good start. Remember you must never give up. Something great could be just around the corner and there is help out there. Take care sweet poet!

[Cherrie Palmer]

If you look inwardly details can overwhelm, but if your focus is on your world around you, then your own troubles seem smaller.

[Davidgeo]

That kind of pain can be one of three things... what kills you, what saves you, or the mark of a profound misunderstanding of a situation.

You get to choose which it is. So choose wisely and always remember, everything is temporary. Everything... even the bad things, even the good things.

[The Iron Horseman]

Your struggle with depression is heart-rending, and it is expressed powerfully in this piece. Your pain comes through loud and clear. So, unfortunately, does your low self-esteem, which is not at all justified; you have friends in this online society who value you for who you are. Try not to dwell on the negative aspects of your life; focus more on the positive.
How about writing us a poem beginning 'Tomorrow will be better because...' ?
Chin up, Cat, things will get better!