I See

This poem is about a male accountant who decides to escape his world and into the world of nature. It is here, where he finds what it means to be truly in love. Refer to the Note for Reviewer for more

The Moment I step Outside

I feel the tension release

the thoughts and memories of 

numbers and calculations 

escape my mind

Or really, I escape them.

The snow dances and summersaults to the ground.

I walk quickly into the Forest

Where n one can find me.

I walk for hours,

Carefully avoiding the continents of snow under my feet.

Making sure not to destroy their world, 

The snow fairies and snow skaters.

Their world. 

I feel like I'm a scary giant over them.

They are tiny and they hurriedly scurry.

They dance and play.

They laugh and sing.

And I observe. 

I make sure to love them,

To care for them.

I can't see them, but

I know

They are there.

I hopscotch over the bridge and slip on the slush.

I laugh and catch myself as I fall.

Silly slush.

What's the point of being embarrassed?

What's the point of being afraid?

What's the point of complaining?

I tiptoe over the thin ice and wonder if I can

Cascade down the large hill.

I hear the loud cheers and applauds of the river,

Splashing and tumbling.

It's too warm for it to freeze,

But it's too cold for it to not snow.

I laugh with the trees that pose to catch the flakes of snow.

I hold out my tongue and catch the crisp snow flakes on it.

I feel the frigid air air pinch my nose,

And I let a wide smile slide across my face.

I cross under a bridge and I hear water

Trickling down form above 

into a small puddle of water.

The sound transports me to a cave where I am hiding from pirates.

I'm there for shelter.

I see sticks and tree stumps lying around me.

The puddles of mud, I examine carefully

With an unexplainable joy. 

It's beautiful, is it not?

The pirates are gone and now I can leave the cave.

I cross into the daylight and leave the fears behind me;

I see the path before me,

Swirling and bending with the Wind.

With each eye adjustment and with each step,

It does not seem to end.

But it's beautiful is it not?

I do not wish to go back to the world I came from.

Where I sat in a suit and wrote and calculated.

Because, here I'm surrounded by a beauty I cannot explain.

A beauty that defies all logic or reason. 

It's unexplainably magnificent.

And I can't help but feel the furnace in my heart grow warmer and more alive.

My eyes well with warm tears

and the gentle streams trickle down my face.

I finally see.

Author's Note

This poem is not about me necessarily. I was inspired by a walk i took on a snowy afternoon on a walking trail in a park in Illinois. I wrote this poem with my thoughts because I thought of how when you are in love, your whole world changes, things look different, beautiful. However, I wanted to show how the character never really understood what it meant to truly "see" and expereince being in love, until he goes into the presence of the Lord and falls in love with God, The Creator, the One who first loved us. People will say that when you are in love, ordinary or mundane things even look beautiful. I also threw in some themes of what it was like to be a child and the joy that came from being a child; you were free from a lot of burdens that age can bring. Plus, it's also said that being in love can make you feel young! All of that is what this poem is about. I also wanted to tell it form the point of view of a male because I wanted to challenge myself and play around with different points of view and I also wanted to challenge the stereotypes about males as well; I wanted to challenge the toxic masculinity stigma attached to males. I hope you enjoy(ed) this poem!