I wish I was another

I can't stop looking at myself this way,

Without wishing I looked like another,

Someone who's head isn't in disarray,

I want to live the life of some other.

I know I'm easily replaceable,

For I'll never be anything unique.

To you, I'll always be incapable,

Of being anything less than a freak.

I understand that I am so naive,

Wanting something I will never procure,

Instead of asking for help, I should leave,

Once I do, my sad death i will ensure.