Would I? Could I? Should I?

About someone i moved on from (or did i?)

All those hugs 

as tight as knots

all those stares so deep I couldn't bare

are you the cause 

of what I lost 

or the reason 

of what I found

what is it about you

that a single smile could make me blue

what is it about you 

that makes me feel so untrue

I can't figure you out 

but all I know is you cared

when I never thought someone would 

when I never thought someone dared

all the scars you drew

aligned as if it fits the sky

all those feelings that grew

along with the hope that died

all the secrets I told you

all the stories we shared

left a paragraph to undo

or a chapter to be filled

that moment filled with butterflies

went by as fast as time

are those the memories I miss?

or is it you that have become my memories?

the smell of the past 

the hands that held 

all of that didn't last 

like the wound inside my head

Dear John 

I see it all now 

that you're gone 

and that you're way beyond

I'm letting you go 

but I'm choosing to stay

take these thoughts with you

these thoughts I wish would go away

I'll always be right here

right here where you left me 

but I'd have to overcome the fear

the fear of losing you to love me

Author's Note

for closure