Can't you see

For people out there who seeks validation from people (a.k.a people-pleasers)

The little girl in me,

Full of joy and grace,

Pleased to be happy,

to have joy in every pace.

The little girl in me, 

Unknown of the reality, 

The little girl in me 

Who cant face complexity 

What happened to the little me? 

Who just wanted to be free,

who’s now filled with strain, 

who’s now in-live of restraints.

The nights became my days,

The wants became the needs,

My self became the face i cannot face,

the pressure became the thing i feed.

The self is disregarded 

The goals are the first on the list 

where do I put myself?

Up in the air? Or on the risky fit 

As my eyes light up 

For the good that it does 

my eyes become wet 

for the acknowledgement it doesn’t get 

I seek and I seek 

for what you are blind of 

Where is this going ? 

up where I want it to be? or it’d be thrown in the sea 

I just wanted you to speak up 

tell me I'm doing good 

tell me I'm doing great 

or at least something I can take 

I jump into places 

I ask for a lift 

You ignore the words I utter 

maybe walking alone’s better 

I hit the water 

so hard with a pebble 

tried to seek for it 

but the water couldn’t be gentle 

Where is it hidden 

the part of you portrayed so softly 

How do I find it 

Through the words that kills me slowly? 

to release the rage 

I let it all out

I didn’t mean to poke the bear 

Till her claws come out 

I’ll try to be the calm shore 

willing to get hit by the waves

is it enough that I wore? 

my ego so brave?