Fading April

You have poisoned my thoughts with your memories

You have become nothing but the death of me

Bit by bit you consume the soul of me

Lift me up then drop me from your silver lining

Break and restore before you break me again

Is your philosophy, as you drink from my pain

Cut me wide open before you walk right through me

My pain your pleasure, my loss your gain

I wake up each morning mourning at your smile

I beg of you please take a break on me

I beg of you to please break my heart

I beg of you to please release me from your wrath

Please just make smile with your absence

Your absence that has scarred me with scars to forever last

Go ‘head and put a cup next to my chin as I cry

Go brag to the world about the latest addition in your collection of hearts

Write it in the sky-line that you are happy

Tell it to the world how you really loved me

Tell them you never meant it and I was the one weak

And I’ll just be making you notes that say “I MISS YOU”

I’ll ink every single letter with blood from my scars

I’ll sink every single pillow with my teary nights

I’ll think everyday why you avoid me yet it hurts me

And I’ll thank you everyday for the love that you gave me

I know it’s not in the options but I still pray you stay

But when you stay you put knife right through my heart

And when you go you rip it out leaving me in broken parts

So as you fade with this month of April I’ll whisper your name

In this poem sealed with lies through so many tears

Reviews

[Gbannersauce]

I know when something is good when I start to read and I can feel what the poem is saying. I felt that here; I felt that sadness and for one whole minute I was sad even though I wouldn't relate, at all, to this topic at this time in my life. It was a wonderful experience the read this poem so thank you for that.

[G!o]

I was really drained when i was writing this piece. It was like the only thing keeping me together were the words that kept on playing in my mind. Thank you....

[reflectingus]

Sorrow made each word heavy and my heart sink as I read this. Powerful connotation, sometimes we're blinded by love, and though heartbreak is supposed to cure that blindness, here it seems to have blinded further, to a point of pain. I felt the pain and the lines as I read this. This could actually be relatable, especially to your loved ones, sometimes you are forced to love them, though you wish you could just leave. Though life requires you to be firm, and do whatever might be right, and no one deserves such pain. Good, emotional write.

[Michael G.]

This made me keep wondering just how much lower can a person go, in the realm of sadness.

[Gurdeep...The Lost]

Realy nice work....expresses the pain of a person troubled in love..)