She

I remember how she cried for me

under the tightrope over Mallory Square and

how she died for me, in the basement

in pajamas with unwashed hair

I remember how she flew at me

Fists clenched eyes red

And how she laughed with me

in the morning in our bed

The first time I saw her.

The last time too

I remember her eyes

they were green and brown and blue

I remember her name

It was Tara and Kira

and Megan and Jess.

Carrie and Carla

Carla was the best

I remember how she moved,

how she laughed and how she smelled

I remember how she liked to be

touched and hit and held

I remember how she made me feel

after sex in the afternoon and

walking barefoot through the streets

in the rain beneath the moon

Lying naked on the beach,

wishing on a star

Waking up beside her

in the desert in our car

I remember how she smiled

how she touched my face

How she'd run her fingers through my hair

and call me  babe

And how she left me in the gutter when I needed to be saved.