The Ground You Walk On

Turn up the radio a little loud right now, windows down, just drowned me in sound.

Cigarette smoke preventing words that can't be spoken.

Thoughts lost in the music, making me feel less useless.

I can't help but feel more alone, even when i'm at home.

Follow me to a place I hate, watch me well I waste away.

Time doesn't heal pain, our minds have a way of making broken feelings change to shame.

And all I want is to feel wanted, but everyone I touch turns to dust.

Trust smells deceiving, forgiving myself seems like a battle I lost to my heart beating. 

Wouldn't it be great to runaway, go to a place where no one knows your face.

Leave without a trace, all the hurt moves away.

Be who you want to be, have a clean slate. 

Forget about everything you've become to hate.

Feeling at peace, baring the silence, being able to live in its quietness. 

Your heart doesn't live in your stomach anymore.

Brought back to life, by music that moves your soul, feel infinite to it all.

Free yourself from your uncomfortable body, stop living in your own captivity, that haunts your misery. 

Feeling sickened, sinking in, quickening.  

What have I done? what was I thinking?

Look at my hands! I know i'm not the only one shaking. 

Who have I become? How will I find light in the darkness that overwhelms my soul, buried deep and swallowed whole.

Maybe if I keep moving forward.

Blindfolded but chasing my mindless feet.

Perhaps all find shelter away from the loss that's crushing me, killing me inside.

Stress eating me away.

I can't feel the same.

I feel like I lost myself along the way, and left my heart somewhere, by searching for help in the wrong kind of place. 

Finding myself in a body I didn't create.

I'm just a passing thing, its not to late to fade with change.

I can't forgive myself.

But maybe I can forget, lose memory of every bit, every part that makes me sick.

As I watch the world from beneath the ground.

I find joy in your laughter, as I disintegrate into the soil.

I become nothing more then the ground you walk on.  

Reviews

[SmittyJas]

I found this very moving and spelling binding read it took me places I didn't want to be but its make me deal with my inter-reality Haunts and the ghost them make me lose sleep over nights this makes me realize I'm not the only one who lives with regrets and the pain of failures.

[Coyote Poetry]

Strong words and thoughts in poem. I like the honest tone and the strong ending.
"As I watch the world from beneath the ground.
I find joy in your laughter, as I disintegrate into the soil.
I become nothing more then the ground you walk on. "
When we become just soil and forgotten. Break our heart. The poem had the feel of a song. I liked the poem. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[gypsynight]

Thank you so much it means a lot that you enjoy my work! I tend to be inspired when i'm going through something, its like once i write everything out all my worries go away.

[Coyote Poetry]

Me too. Bad days and stress. My best poetry and story is written. And you are welcome.