How Far I've Come

I look back on how far I've come
And all the times I cried,
Screaming I'm done.
All the nights I prayed not to wake up
The next morning. 
All the days I lied
Walking down the hall, smiling like I don't have open wounds under my sleeves
I look back on my past
And how I was told I wouldn't last
No a child like me didn't belong in this cruel world.
I was just a little girl
And there was no one to protect me
So I made lefts when I should of turned right
And I went back when I should of stayed forward.
Even during my best days, I'll never forget that night
My whole life, I've made mistakes.
Some I just can't shake
From burning deeper into my memories
But get this, this girl isn't what everyone sees
My eyes lie, but not at as well as my lips,
My tongue deceives, and my cries are left unheard.
You would never guess by looking at me
That my past is darker than most
But here I am.
I'm so close to a dream I've always dreamt
I never thought I'd be here, standing here,
Butterflies very much alive 
Ready to guide me to what I strive
To eventually be.