Significance Journal - 01.8.14

Since the last entry into the journal i've had quite a development since then.  In short though, my conditions have only intensified in complexity.  

My libido has long since been lost, but contrary to that fact I've come to enjoy all the sex I can handle and more.  My body and mind feel at times in very different places, it's actually quite displacing to me, so much so that is has brought me to a greater realisation; The voice of reason vs. the voice of enlightenment conundrum.

I cannot express my frustration at my inability to explain this in my mind let alone through text.  My reasonable thoughts and my wants are so clearly defined that they contradict one another, as if there is a devil on one shoulder and an angel on the other.  Lately though I learned to communicate with these two 'things', which scares me greatly.  I fear not only have I broken the Odysseus Complex and the Guilt Complex generally, but all humane complexes that define a human.  

Here though, it is notable that my voice of reason and voice of enlightenment are in an act of negation.  I can now see my struggles materialised before my very eyes.  I must first find the right questions and right answers, in order to approach this correctly.