Is it worth getting used?

Is it worth getting used?
After hearing all of this news?
Do I want to get hurt again?
All to keep one of my friends?

Yes I do but I don't know why
Why I deal til all the pain makes me want to die
"Its complicated" you say
It never had to be this way
We could have even made it stay!

My anger has begun to take control
Do I deserve to live in this underworld?
Hades, I guess that's the place for me
A place where all sweetness tastes like the Dead Sea

I am tired of this pain and sorrow
How can I even look at you tomorrow?
It seems that everyone might be right
Right about how my mood can change overnight

"No your wrong," I say to myself
Now I really starting to worry about my health.
"Just get some sleep", as I always say
"Maybe she will love you the next day?"

"Ha, what a sad pitiful joke
you look as if you are going to croak."
Well, maybe I am. That might be the best
Let someone else finally deal with the rest
But I can't go or everything will undo
I will just never understand how I had someone like you.