Regarding mother dearestA Poem by Mercy Faea poem about a subject i've stayed silent about until now
Mother,
i thank you for filling my ears with your propaganda and bullshit about what a terrible father my dad is. I know he isn't, I don't need your opinion. I am ever so grateful for every day you make me feel worthless, inadequate, not good enough. you increased my guilt, ' opened up old wounds I wanted to forget. I left you on Mother's day. I began to regret it, and you continue to make me feel like s**t even though it was years ago. You invalidate my feelings, and force me to see a psych even when I don't want to. Mother dearest, don't you ever wonder why Matthew left? You drove him over the edge. You criticized his lack of belief in God. You used him like you've used me. You blame everyone else in your life for your mistakes. Maybe next time we're alone, i'll point you to a mirror. But I fear you. I fear the consequences of speaking up, or disagreeing. Because clearly you know best, you know everything. You don't. You refuse to acknowledge my weight. You brush it aside and pretend that i'm not fighting to eat regularly. You blame me for my problems. You think i'm a burden to my best friend, and for years, i've believed it myself. But i'll learn to listen to him before you.
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7 Reviews Added on January 2, 2016 Last Updated on January 2, 2016 AuthorMercy FaeHuntington Beach, CAAboutI have an official website now. Going to start posting here more often. more..Writing
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