Words Unsaid

I wish one day will come and you will read this and finally notice what was unsaid.

If you asked me how many times you've crossed my mind, I'd say once only, because you never really left

I can control myself not to see you, i can control myself not to hear you, but i cant stop controlling the thoughts that infested my mind about you,

its the craziest thing, some days i cant stop thinking about you and other days i wonder why i'm wasting my time, its like you came into my life in a whirlwind and no matter how hard you try you cant stop thinking about them, even after they leave... ESPECIALLY after they leave,

They say when you meet someone, THAT one special someone, you'll know and your heart will beat more rapidly than a winning horse race and you'll smile for no reason because i know and you know that you are here, and like almost every other nigh, i dreamed of you, we talked like normal friends do, then i woke up and realized we don't talk no more, we're not friends.

You do not know how much i want you to be with me and talk to me and laugh with me.. like how you used to be with me.

I wanna me you so happy like i used too

To the point where you cant stop smiling,

And i wanna make you feel really loved again so you don't have to doubt anything for a second

And as i keep thinking about how incredible you are, ill never manage to stop thinking about you,

We all have that someone we never speak of,

Someone who meant so much, that even hearing their name makes your soul tremble like a non lasting earthquake of memories and pain,

Someone who makes your heart break a little more each time you accidentally think or see a color that resembles the color of their eyes.

Constantly i told you,

Hi mind,

Please stop thinking about her,

You'll get crazy,

but you did you listen?

Look how and where are you now

You, and i were made of glass

We'd never last, meant to die together but we moved fast and then we crashed,

I'm not saying that i am still in love,

I'm just saying that lately,

you've been all i can think about and see after each blink..

Kissing you reduced the anxiety that was too heavy to carry

Stopped the 'noise' in my mind and me in a calming peace with my self,

But now

I hate it when my mind is telling me

To stop loving you

My heart cant bare to let go

Every night i think of you before bed

With hopes of having you in my dreams

You have my heart wrapped around your finger,

and even though you let it go i would probably pick it up and tie it back around your finger..

Its like it has been so long

And now

I'm addicted to the way i feel when i start to think about you when i know that i need to stop thinking about you,

Because i know

You're thinking about me..

I wanna go back to sleep, but my eyes wont shut because you'r always dwelling in my mind

And once their shut You'd be dwelling in my dreams..

Its hard to tell your mind to stop thinking about someones

When your heart still does.

I cant fake it

The way i could before

I hate you but i love you

I cant stop thinking about you

Cause its true,

I'll always be stuck on you..

An entire sea of water can't sink what we had

but now

i feel like a sinking titanic into the cold dark abyss of an unforgiving ocean

It is sad that i cant stop thinking about you knowing that your not thinking of me..

I wish you knew how much you meant to me

But it burns my heart just thinking about you

You loving someone else,

Someone who isn't me..

But then i have to remind my self that sometimes

Love is about letting go,

But i cant let you go..

I got mad at myself for not saying the things i could've said a million times

I took them for granted,

The days spent with you without the words unsaid

Anyone can be gone, at anytime in our lives but we always wait until they're actually gone to say the things we never had the courage to before.

Its never easy missing someone,

And knowing you cant do anything about it anymore,

If you haven't noticed the scars that remains in my heart

or the fake smile on my lips

or the forced laugh that I've adopted

or the way i don't care

about the things i used to love,

then don't you dare stand at my grave and cry!

how can you cry for someone that you didn't even notice?

Reviews

[SamSim27]

Very powerful.
I don't have many other words to describe it.... other than wow.
Thank you for sharing.

[Joey Nizz]

Thanks, some if not most of the words are how i felt and some how would others feel, again thank you for reviewing :)