Hope to carry on

For Brennan Michael Bennett.

I hope you know.


I hope you know i spend 6 hours a day, 


Wishing and wishing the pain would melt away.


I hope you know it wasn't god given, 


But once i met it, it was conjugal;i was be-smitten.


I hope you know its the reason i cry


Why was it him why couldn't i have died? 


I hope you know he is still here, 


He's right next to me; he vanquishes my fears.


I hope you know i play until my fingers bleed, 


Just in hope of some elixir of greed.


I hope you know it wasn't supposed to be possible


The tones and the rhythms and sounds are downright improbable


I hope you know it took me some work, no eidetic memory, nothing was my choice.


No added extra perks. Just.. I hope you know, it was a voice