How hard can you try?

With every step we take away from each other,
The distance is closing.
We're reaching our separate destinations,
Without the feelings of loathing.
We try to fight and argue,
But we know where we both stand.
I tried to pull you back up,
And yet you pushed away my hand.

How hard can you try,
When the other will not respond?
How can you push harder,
When the other has severed the bond?
You can put everything on the line,
And still come up short,
For in these tumultuous times,
Love is merely sport.

My answer?

I try to understand many things,
And normally I succeed.
But when it came to your love for me,
I realized how much I didn't see.

I never thought that your quiet hello's,
Were more than that - shy greetings.
And yet, as I look back upon those days,
I realize that it must've looked like I was fleeing.

Whenever I passed you as we walked through the halls,
I felt the lingering stare.
I should have known how you felt back then,
I should've known you were always there.

Your eyes, they bore into mine like no other did.
They showed me the world of your emotions.
And even though I dismissed them as childish,
I should have known you wanted to go through the motions.

I never gave you an honest answer,
And I never gave you the time of day.
But here, with these words, the purest of my thoughts,
I finally know what I have to say.

I wanted you too, more than you'll ever know.
Your delicate figure would keep me humbled.
And every time you walked through that door,
My heart and emotions would tumble.

My days would be filled of thought of us,
When, if ever, we would first kiss.
My dreams were of your smiling face,
About the way we could share eternal bliss.

My heart was open the entire time,
But in a way I sealed it off from you.
My lips could not voice what my heart wanted to say,
But it wanted to shout it's feelings so true.

I remember that you loved to take walks,
Although you always took them alone.
I remember building up the courage to join you,
And remember that I walked you home.

Every moment we spent together,
My heart felt like it was in the Olympics.
I felt like I was performing feats of great endurance and courage,
By resisting the urges to tenderly kiss your lips.

I look back on all of this, 
And wonder if your thoughts are still of me.
And even if I wanted you now,
If you have moved on, I know it cannot be.

So now you know my answer, love.
You know my heart's true desire.
The coals of our love are still dimly lit.
It'll only take a few sparks to reignite the fire.