Possibly

I’m laying here and my heart is literally racing
My mind won’t stop, I can’t quit analyzing every word you said
Every action you made, every sigh you release

Every time when you cupped my face when you kissed me
Every time you looked into my eyes and watched the ecstasy on my face
Every growl and moan that came out of your mouth

Where did it go wrong?

When I kissed your shoulder when you were getting me water?
When you held my hand after?
When you walked me to my car?
When I asked you to kiss me goodbye?
When you told me to text you when I got home so you knew I was safe?
When I asked if you wanted to do this again?

I should have just let you go after
No cuddles, no hand holding, no unsanctioned kisses
I should have left you alone
Distanced myself from you and what we just did

Every thought running through my head…
Aggressive? Clingy? Not enough? Too much?

What was I thinking?

That you cared?
That I meant something special?
That what we did was something special?

While you rocked my bruised body and my world, it was nice.
It could happen again, possibly.