The Voices In My Head

Live to tell the tale.

Depression,

You're my catastrophic obsession,
You are a convenient 'friend'
A parasitic real life distraction
Whispering "The End"

Oh depression you make me lose my mind;
Leave me breathless;
And make me go untamably wild;
Then you scream "you're worthless"

You are the voice who said "game over"
So I tried to restart and begin again
But these wounds will utterly scar forever
For a broken heart and a damaged brain

You made me shut everyone out
Then said "nobody loves you";
I had so many questions and doubt;
Ain't I worth of love or will I ever get through?

You told me "suicide is the answer"
Though you knew I am afraid to die
But I wanna end the pain so I wonder;
7 billion people and you chose me, why?

I am so sick and tired, aren't you?
For the 3rd simultaneous month I cried,
Every day and night but nobody knew,
Wouldn't have it been better if I just died?

You fill this room with sadness,
Making my life a living hell
For ive been living long enough in the darkness,
To remember this everlasting pain too well

I have forgotten how to live,
For all I wanna be is dead
Now, everything I would give,
For you to leave my head

I cant lay my armor down now,
For I have sacrificed and suffered enough;
I know someday I will be okay somehow,
Cause' you are nothing but a bluff

My sweaty palms are holding on tight
Hoping I haven't lost the fight
And at the end of the battle comes a light
Waiting for my future so bright

So no, the game is not yet over,
This is just the beginning of the bloody battle;
So i'll be strong and i'll get better
because my life surely does matter.

Author's Note

My first poem and I know it's know it needs a lot of improvement. I'd really appreciate if someone tells me what to improve.