Beautiful World of Ourz

This world is getting hazy.
My mind is slowly spinning.
This world Im living in, its losing me.
I hide my eyes behind dirty hands.
My mouth sewn shut to keep the secrets in.
Im not the same girl you knew before.
I've changed to someone you hate.
The blue swirls around me,
letting the water fall around me.
Black forging me with the fragerance of regret.
Why cant I relinquish everything to loosen this pain?
This feeling that holds me down, keeping me back...
Dont you realize how scared?
Doesnt this world understand the isolation...the rejection?
The chains I wear, bear the truth of all our sins.
Blue, Black and red...
those are the colors I wear.
Tremble, Fear and saddness...
no one knows the inside.
We are all fake and everyone knows.
Why cant the light shine and clear my thoughts...
it only shreds me into smaller pieces.
So small and torn in so many places,
will You even recognize that I was always yours?
I needed someone to show me the way, to help me...
to show me the way out. Yet you did not.
The world got to me  and now I know;
all Im good at is being on my back.
Im drowning and no one to bring me a new life.
Im just anouther fraud. Im sorry for holding back.
This world is big and and decieving,
it did a number on me.
This world is beautiful...
it had my warm light.
The chains drag me down growing larger...longer.
You people that have been close...
you never saw the cure pass into my body?
I did it right in front of your eyes, many times.
I've come to an understanding for Im tired of fighting;
you must be strong to live in this world.
A world that you musty cheat in,
will you even notice?
The dark cloud hovers over me, details drawn and burned into my skin like a tatto.
This is what I've become, something to be used...
something to your dirty work.
You never knew it could rebel back, did you?
Its for the best Im assuming, right?
I'll keep lookimng forward and pretending.
The colors of yellow and green flow around me, just to keep you happy.
A metal wall built around my heart so I can never love true.
My mouth sewn to hide the secrets.
My eyes covered by me hands to be blind to the truth.
Just know I'll be victourious one day and
will escape into the unknown joy.