Stitched and Broken

I can’t do this anymore.

I can’t pretend I’m okay when I’m not.

You're gone. 

 

I can’t forget and I can’t erase the pain.

I can’t live a normal life when I’ve spent so long living with you.

 

I know how my days will be from now on.

I will smile and be happy all day, because that’s what you want.

 

You won’t know the screams that torture me at night.

You won’t know about how my dreams are my nightmares. 

 

D****t, why? 

 

I don’t want to be okay, because that would mean having to forget you.

I can’t do this anymore.

 

I can’t forget when all I want to do is remember.

I want to indulge and laugh in your arms.

But I can't. 

 

I wish I could allow myself to dive into those memories

But they terrify me because of the pain they bring.

 

I don't want to think about the last night I saw you.

But all I can do is love you because I miss you.

I miss you.

 

The car, the lights, the drive, the night.
What the f**k were you thinking?

Gone

 

I wish you were here. 

I wish I was with you. 

Reviews

[Eagle Cruagh]

Confused.
I think you are writing about some other
person. I am sure you have too much
good sense than to let an abuser destroy
your life...... that is exactly what happens
in this sort of situation.
I am confused because you appear to adore
this jerk and he can care less.

Great writing, an interesting story, but sad.
No woman should live like that. It is indecent
to allow ones self to be denigrated and abused.

----- Eagle Cruagh

[Finally loved <3]

wow :O

[rosemary keogh]

i like this poem it reminds me of a past relationship i was in. we always seem to fall for the bad guy. nicely done

[Seshat Nidaba]

This was an intense read, I did enjoy it though, so often men fall in love too fast and when women catch up, the men are no longer emotionally present. So you summed up a gender difference quite nicely here.

[sivan]

This poem almost made me cry but more because im feeling all this right at this moment. You've captured the rawness of the emotions so simply. great write

[*~*Butterfly Kisses*~*]

Heartfelt, emotional write. Wonderfully expressed. Nicely done.

[The Last Poetic King]

The thing is when past relationships even if we keep holding on and they don't feel the same it will always push them farther away. If you truly want them there, then just stay friends, put your emotions aside. I know it's hard, but learn from it. Don't let the next relationship end the same way. I like your piece here, I can feel the heartache. It's such a painful experience, but turn that pain into art. Like poetry, because you'll find that you will create much better work when you're hurt or upset. Good piece, once again. I hope things work out for you.