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You ever feel like it's do or die?
So you do it but still contemplate suicide..
Cause really between you and I,
I hate the fact that you always choose a different side..

You ask if I'm okay because you feel obliged,
So if I don't tell you about it, you can say you tried,
And that you're not the reason for everytime I ever cried,
But you watch me lose myself as I kept all this pain internalized..

Don't you see, or you just choose not to,
Cause when you ain't good, damnit you know I got you..
But you broke me and that didn't stop you,
Cause it's okay to hurt others as long as it's not you..

Do you know what it's like to look in the mirror, and see somebody that's not you..
And know you're holding onto someone that kinda just forgot you..
And see them showing affection, putting effort into everyone that's not you..
But that's cool, I like being alone cause it's only really you that's got you..