I Used to Keep a Blog. I Used to Have a MySpace. I Used to Listen to Green Day.

Lots of nostalgia. Constant melancholy. Yeah.

Still wish I could watch Titanic for the first time, 
still afraid to grow up, 
still wish my life until now had taught me anything.

Still want to be James Mercer, 
still ashamed sometimes that I don't care about family like other people do, like artists do, 
still wish I didn't exist sometimes.

Cried the first seven times I saw Titanic. Haven't cried since December but that was the first time in years, felt good. Feels good when I think about the past. Don't worry about the future enough, worry about the future too much.

Don't wish nostalgic melancholy on anybody.

Author's Note

It's not actually a poem, just kinda me typing shit I was thinking about. I liked it though. Listening to too much Sun Kil Moon lately.