INKA THOUGHS

just typing what im thinking

life, my life.

I am inka, I am Shantel, I am kitty

within my thoughts I think all the time.

where it leads me?

I don't know anymore,

I feel fear, I feel darkness around.

Only light I have are my two angel 

that I was giving to me.

through heart ache and mental abuse I fear, 

I fear so much I feel like a cat trapped in a cage never to be touch 

never to be loved, never known what happiness is.

I once knew when I was a young kitten, 

but fear and a stupid thing came upon my mind.

I was wrong I was dumb.

ever day now is numb, sadness sorrow.

life

why do I do stupid 

why can't I grow more for you.

why can't I stand up

I Fear him I fear for my babies 

loves 

my angels.

I have truly walked with the hellish demons dogs of hell

when I once dance with a lucifer.

life,

I live for my babies

must fight for my angels.

I asked of though of spiritual to help me through.

Life.

Author's Note

its how I am feeling and going through