Final MovementA Story by Liam Avery GratehouseA short-story on societal despair; a despair with a remedy.Her backbone dug into her
bed’s wooden frame, her tailbone into the hardwood of the floor. It was the
dull kinda pain that didn’t kill but didn’t go away either. She didn’t care
anymore, anyways. That was the real tragedy, I guess. The sole occupant of her
attention was a spider clinging to the frame of her vanity. She didn’t gaze outta
fear or disgust, just outta jealousy: its legs moved in its hideous dance while
she couldn’t move at all. Her legs were asleep, you understand. She hadn’t moved
for hours; she didn’t have the strength to. Her limbs were heavy even though
she was so wispy and thin. She hadn’t eaten in days, hadn’t slept either. She
didn’t care anymore. It was all ending,
anyway. Her mind was made up. Outside of her window
drummed the constant downpour of rain against the fire-escape stairway that
snaked the side of the building. And far below, in the streets of the storming
twilight city, fear and fire raged. She’d seen the news,
after all. That big chapel had burned to the ground, and folks took that as
their chance to show how much they really didn’t care anyway. Crowds upon
crowds rallied to put their stake down on the real issues. Riots had broken out. So she sat, watching the
spider, listening to car horns sound like the end-time trumpets, to the rain
beat down like the drums of judgment, and to the cries of one-hundred-thousand
angry folks who didn’t care that the world was ending. Her world, at least. Hopeless indifference had
overtaken her, the same that had overtaken most of the world up to that point.
Now it had finally boiled over. She let her head fall back onto the cushion of
her disheveled mess of a bed, and she listened. “…it’s
really pathetic.” The tone was harsh; it was her mother’s
boyfriend. Third boyfriend. “I
can’t--Michelle, wait!” There was
a thud. “I can’t depend on you for anything, anymore. You don’t take care of
the house, yourself, or even that little demon of a girl! Listen, plea--hey!”
There was another thud, and then
silence. Her mother shouted something incomprehensible, too muffled in the
other room. “I’m done, Michelle,” the
boyfriend said, finally. There was a door’s slam. Things just didn’t really go well,
I guess. Not anymore. The girl heard her mother storming around the wreck of
their apartment. Then silence, aside from
the distant drums, the faraway trumpets, and the cries of one-hundred-thousand
people too angry to realize the damage they’d dealt. She was done, too. I hate
that she’d reached that point, I really do. There were so many truths, so many
revelations that she’d missed, things that’d left her without meaning, without
hope. Broken. She’d been done for weeks and weeks now, but only now had her
spark begun to sputter. It all seemed like a
horrible nightmare. The chaos of the far-below streets, the third time she’d
been left by any sort of a father figure, and then the haze. Her bedroom was so
hazy that made it look like the clouds had seeped through the window. It was
smoke from her mother and the other distasteful folk that’d shared the apartment. In the haze it was hard
for the girl to see, speaking nothing of the darkness. Her light-bulbs had died
months ago, and they hadn’t bought new ones. The room was lit only by the
dreary blue outside the window. The smoke did sting the
girl’s eyes, but she didn’t care, and she shed no tears. She was passed that. You might’ve been there
once. There’s a real, real terrible place in folk’s lives when even tears won’t
have sympathy for you. I’ve been there before, seen it too many times to count.
It’s that moment when the spark reaches its dimmest, you understand. Through the smeared
picture of the haze she looked about herself, moving the way you might move
underwater. She looked at the vanity where the spider’d been. It was still
there weaving its web in mockery of her stillness, but she was looking past the
arachnid. Of note were two things
that the girl gazed at: the vanity, a fixture so beautifully made; and an old,
outgrown, worn out pair of ballet shoes. If anything would’ve
brought tears to her eyes, it was those shoes. For a brief, hopeful moment she
thought back to the good she’d seen, the happiness she’d experienced. But that
was long ago. She couldn’t dance when her spark had dimmed like that. She studied the vanity
for a moment longer, and she thought something was wrong. She couldn’t make out
what, but the whole thing was wrong.
It was beautiful, but the haze made it too difficult to see what was wrong with
it. She’d not forgotten, simply buried it in her own haze. Next of interest was the
window. The drums had grown louder, the rain harder; the trumpets more frequent,
forewarning an impending disaster, maybe. She hated it all. She wished she
could break the glass, she wished that she could light a match and burn it all,
building by building. She wished-- Well, she wished a lot of
things, you understand. She didn’t will any.
She’d been put under too
many times, I suppose. Ignored too often by the right folks and accosted too
often by the wrong ones. And she’d never been told that there was hope. Her lips quivered, though
no tears accompanied that. She didn’t deserve it, really. She was too young for
that spark to sputter like that. But sputter it did, in its death throes, its
final movement. Whether you can explain
it away or not, there’s a spark in every heart. Every spark comes from a
source, you understand, be that divine or subconscious. But every spark dies,
too. And some sparks sooner than
others. Her eyes opened; she
hadn’t realized they’d fallen shut. The spider’s movement still mocked her, the
arachnid weaving its web as if to challenge a god’s own weave. She looked at
the ballet shoes, and for a moment she thought, Maybe… then she saw the vanity, and discerned a part of its
wrongness: its mirror was cracked in the corner. There’s no going back, she thought. It was the clearest thought
she’d had in weeks. And so the spark
sputtered. The girl made her penultimate movement. Though starving, and
though delirious, she moved. Her eyes were heavy and swollen, and though she
would’ve liked to rub them, she didn’t have the strength to raise her arms too
far. Her knees shook to support her light weight. She reached the window,
leaned her weight against it. She looked out over the city, watching the
calamity as it unfolded. There was bumper-to-bumper traffic and every horn rang
clear and true like that final and ominous judgment. Fires roared from the
corner stores, unimpaired by the rain. In the distance she could see the rising
column of smoke from the chapel that’d burnt. Pushing and shoving with
the last measure of her will, she opened the window. Within a moment, the haze
of her bedroom had cleared, and her lungs ached as fresh, damp air filled them. The girl turned to
reexamine her room in the haze’s absence. Looking at the vanity, she was struck
by how dreadful it really looked. The fixture had once been beautiful, now she
could see it clearly. Its mirror was stained by countless fingerprints, where
folks had handled it without care. Too much human grease and muck stained the
thing. There was a spiderweb that clung to the bottom corner where the arachnid
was moving. Opposite the spider’s web was a spiderweb of cracks. And around the
off-white frame the paint’d been chipped and rubbed away by misuse and overuse.
I’m sure you understand.
The girl’s own haze had cleared, and she realized the stains on her own vanity.
She didn’t care anymore. It was cruel what the
world had done to her. But it was crueler what she was about to do to the
world. She climbed out the
window, onto the stairway. She had a birds-eye view of the chaos from there. The spark reached its
throes as she made her final
movement. That divine spark, that seed of instinct, whose Will was creation,
reached its destruction at last. Soaked to the bone and shivering, hair clinging
to her neck like ivy on a wall (or like a stairway on a building’s side) she
stood, briefly, tall. She grabbed the handrail,
took a final gaze, inhaled, and then... There was music. For a moment, the girl
heard the trumpets fade away, and the drums quiet down. She heard the cries
become like the fading echo of a bad dream. There was only the music. Strange,
something melodious and ethereal, the music droned on. It was a clear, sweet
voice. It was the voice of a man, but unlike anything the girl had ever heard
from one. There was no harsh strength, no violence, no threat. It was a voice as gentle
as a forest breeze. She couldn’t tell where
it came from, but she couldn’t get the melody out of her head. So she stood still,
soaking in the rain, listening. Inside of her heart, that spark began to glow a
little brighter. She was Psyche, and Amor
was singing. Her head shook, though
she hadn’t shaken it. Her heavy, soaked hair swayed like a bough in the wind. To her, the twilight
looked different, now. She hadn’t realized how beautiful it was. She became
transfixed by the sights and the smells. Rain on asphalt far below, the twinkle
of one-hundred windows on the building’s sides like stars in the sky. She couldn’t help but let
her cheeks rise slowly, as she smiled a real and genuine smile, too long
overdue. No longer was it just
traffic far below. In the music’s spell it was a river of light, red and white,
flowing in the street below. The cars were still, but there was movement all
around them, not indifferent stillness. Rain in the puddles, rioters in the
streets surrounding, a dance that wouldn’t slow. The horns and the drums became
the backdrop for this sweet music dripping like honey to her senses. Transfixion birthed transfiguration,
and the spark burst into a flame within her. A grin lit her sallow,
soaked face, and she felt strong. Her
feet began to move, dancing slowly, in rhythm to the song in her heart. She’d
not felt like that in years. She glanced into the window, into the clarity of
her disorder, and she saw. The vanity was there,
ugly and disfigured. She crawled in, dancing, dancing to the music all the
while, and snatched the old ballet shoes before pulling the vanity to a crash on the floor. Out of the window
she crawled again, throwing the shoes to the wind, before the reckless excitement
seized her. The spark’s Will was
creation; what is movement such as this, if not a state of creation? Of the chaos from within tamed and
ordered into a movement so graceful? She raced down the
stairways, her feet slipping several times on the soaked steps, but her hands
clinging tightly to the handrail. Floor after floor she descended towards the
trumpets of tribulation, towards the drums of the judgment, towards the cries and
the fires of one-hundred-thousand folks in their devilish rage. Onto the street she stood
at last, feet bare and numb, standing in a puddle amidst the chaos of the end-times. Her final movement blossomed.
She danced, without a care in the collapsing world. She danced in the street
before one-hundred-thousand folks put in awe of her movement. She danced like
there was nothing left in the world, the memories of her own muscles
transforming into motion. She danced and the pandemonium stood still. The spark blazed brighter
than ever before. She had tapped into the fount of creation within her, be that
divine or subconscious: that ain’t for me to say. Most awe-striking was the smile
that lit her radiant face, something transforming her sallow despair into joy. She was beautiful and she
was free. In the spasm of passion she danced, in the flow of creation she
entered into her own hereditary godhood, and nothing would challenge her
movement. And the death throes of
the world, for that brief moment in time, stood still. The trumpets quieted,
the drums faded, the cries silenced in awe. Its final movement would
soon thereafter continue, and the world would end. © 2019 Liam Avery GratehouseAuthor's Note
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Added on May 20, 2019 Last Updated on May 20, 2019 AuthorLiam Avery GratehouseJefferson, GAAboutAn aspiring author and long-time writer, my greatest passion is in telling a story and telling it right. I love deep conversations with deeper minds, and I delight in one-on-one conversations on any s.. more..Writing
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