The Day After DoomsdayA Story by Liam Avery GratehouseA short-story showing a final marriage in the wasteland.I took her slender and
gentle hand in mine, bruised as it may have been. It didn’t bother me; how could
it? It was all I’d ever wanted, you know, and I finally had it. My other hand
found her waist, delicate and warm to my touch. Our eyes locked as we began
our dance, swaying among the ashen piles, the heaps of burnt timber, the ruin.
The cathedral was once great. Now, well. The scent of smoke clung to the air,
kicked up with every gentle, dead breeze. Hellfire may have fallen but it
couldn’t ever win. The world may have ended, but the cathedral still stood. In our dance there was an
inherent contradiction, every harsh and gentle sway an oxymoron. Both affection
and contention was made manifest in our motions. Though we found a rhythm that
was harmonious, there was something withheld, something resenting. “I…” the words stopped in
my throat; I knew this was no time nor place for it. “I love you,” I said. The
world had ended; what else could be said? I’d hoped to dispel the
spite, but her tears only began to roll down her blemished and lovely cheeks
more quickly. They were tears of pain and regret. I hated that it hurt me
almost as badly. The music, which had
quieted before then, continued to ring throughout the desolated cathedral. The
open halls resounded with something so otherworldly, but neither of us cared
where it was coming from. We just danced with one-another. She was the heart
and outermost border of my world in one, and I was there only to restore her. She continued to sob,
crying quietly as our feet moved in tandem. Her sorrow didn’t manifest in the
movements; her grace was peerless. But she looked away from my gaze with
something like shame. “You shouldn’t love me,”
she said at last. Her voice was sweeter than any release, but more bitter than any
shame. “I’m not deserving of that kinda love.” “Nobody is,” I said. I
knew it was the wrong time to say that, and I could see the disdain in her
face. “No one…” I began, struggling to mend the statement, “no one deserves too
much love, y’know. But I can’t help lovin’ you.” I tried to meet her eyes
again, but she wouldn’t meet mine. “Your name is always on the tip of my
tongue… honey, you’re always on my mind.” I stopped, fearing that
it’d worsen her shame. The music rang louder,
now. You’ve never heard something so divine as that music. “How?” she asked. “How
can you love me with what I’ve done to you?” Heart in my throat,
beating like the drums of war, I fought to voice my feelings. “There… there ain’t a
thing you can do to me that I’ll hold against you. I’ve forgiven you, darlin’.
Please, just accept that. Let me love you--” “I
can’t accept your forgiveness,” she spat, pushing me
away. She turned her lovely, beaten back on me. She was crestfallen as she
walked away from me in the open hall. But my love was a jealous
one. “Why not?” I demanded,
walking after her. I wouldn’t let her live in shame. Tears rose in my eyes and
I struggled in vain to fight them"they won. I loved the girl more than
anything. More than-- More than she could
understand, then. The soles of my shoes had
been worn away in the catastrophe, in the events of its fear and its fire. My
feet were blistered, but I walked on after her scorned, glorious form. Her hair
danced in the gentle breeze that blew the ash up in the open hall. It was the
ash of one-hundred thousand men and women lost in the all-consuming flame. “Why Not?” I demanded. My tone was icy in its impassioned desire. She shook her head as she
walked, though her pace had slowed. Her hair shook with the gesture, with the
wind. It waved as if drowned in the ocean; it waved like the flags of
one-thousand nations, all caught in a terrible and fiery wind. As I strode after her my
own sight was smeared by the refraction of light in my tears. She’d become
something truly ethereal, and the music resounding throughout the wastes only
deepened that illusion. “Darling, I don’t wanna
go on without you--” I cried after her, her steps slowing, “I want you.” And then we stopped, the
both of us, in our tracks. There was only the music, the gentle breeze that
blew the stench of a dead world, and no talk, no movement. In that moment, we
were simply being. “Then why’d you let me?” she whispered at last, finally turning to
me. Her whisper, even over the divine melody, echoed throughout the cathedral’s
open halls. She heard her own whisper asking back to her, Why’d you let me? “’Let you’? Honey, I…” “How could you let me get
so, so lost…?” Her reddened eyes pleaded. She begged an answer, and it was one
given too easily. “It…” I began, shaking my
head as tears flowed freely, “it wasn’t my place to make your choices.” I
couldn’t bear to look at her pain, not in my own. “That was your choice to make.” “You could’ve prevented
it.” Her eyes, still pleading, like ten-thousand children not understanding
their impending end. “You could’ve--” “I’m here… I’m here, now. Please. Please just accept my…” “I can’t,” she said. Then there was that
moment’s silence again, an enrapturing stillness, like a fresco of the doomsday
gone by. “Why not, my darling?
Why…?” There was more silence,
and it was the silence of one-hundred thousand children lying dead in the
wasteland. It was the silence of all those too hopeless and too indifferent to
save themselves. Her eyes fell shut, tears
flowing over scarred and perfect cheeks. “…because
I can’t forgive myself,” she finally said, settling
gracelessly onto the sooty, ashen stone of the ancient cathedral floor. Her
shawl picked up the black of the ash so readily, a shawl adorned with those
poor souls lost in the hellfire. I fell to my knees before
her, wrapping my arms around her shoulders gently. I set my chin on her unkempt
and glorious hair, and there we wept together. For so long we sat there
that my knees began to ache and bruise. But pain was a small price to pay,
comforting and cradling the girl that I loved. The melody rang
throughout the vast, fire-bathed halls of the cathedral. Only the music and the
sobbing and the dead wind could be heard in the quiet of the wasteland. To me it was only her that
mattered in those precious moments. She was to me my everything, and I loved
her in a way that nobody could’ve ever loved a thing. Through the gaping mouth
of the burnt ceiling, sunlight filled the sanctuary once lit by flame. Where
shadows once lurked, now sunlight filled those parts unseen. The sunlight was
clear and warm, but not harsh. It was that temperate autumn’s sun when
everything has died and has begun its decay, when nothing else remains. But just as autumn’s
death gives way to winter’s ice, and winter’s ice to the new-birth of spring’s
noise, so too would the wasteland give way to a new birth. I was sure. The world may have ended,
but I didn’t care. The girl in my arms was the world to me now, and that’s what
I knew to be important. Would that I could’ve
comforted her in those days of her unfaithfulness, of her rebellion, of her
wayward brokenness--but that was idle wishing. We were passed that, as it was.
The stillness of the cathedral was the same stillness of every other man and
woman in the wastes, the stillness of every tree forsaken by the dead breeze,
the stillness of every fish in every stagnant sea, of every bird in every empty
sky. As I held her in my arms
for those precious moments, her cries silenced. She looked up in my embrace and
into my eyes, and in that moment’s silence I felt a true peace. It was real,
indelible love in her perfect and reddened eyes. “I’m so, so sorry,” she
whispered. “That I turned my back on you… that I… well,” she stopped. I wanted
to squeeze her, to lift her in the air, to love her. But I didn’t wanna spoil
that tender moment. “I…” our eyes, half-lidded, gazed; our lips, half-open to
one-another’s, breathed each other’s air. We were almost… “I love you, too,” she confessed. Then there was bliss, as
lips met in a loving embrace too long overdue. We rose from the soot of the
desolation, from the dust of the wasteland with no thoughts, no intents, no
plan: only an unbridled love, at last unified. The world was dead, but
together in the wasteland, we became happy, just as we had once been. After the end of the
world we were more alive than ever before it. © 2019 Liam Avery GratehouseAuthor's Note
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Added on May 20, 2019 Last Updated on May 20, 2019 AuthorLiam Avery GratehouseJefferson, GAAboutAn aspiring author and long-time writer, my greatest passion is in telling a story and telling it right. I love deep conversations with deeper minds, and I delight in one-on-one conversations on any s.. more..Writing
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