You, Always YouA Poem by LadyFluffYou Do you ever feel Like you’re drowning But you don’t have the strength to scream Do you ever feel Like you’re being buried alive But you don’t have the strength to cry Do you ever feel Like you’re being betrayed But you don’t have the strength to plead Do you ever feel Like you’re being abused But you don’t have the strength to fight Do you ever feel Like you’re being left behind But you don’t have the strength to scream please Do you ever feel Like you’re being cut to shreds But you don’t have the strength to scream stop Do you ever feel Like you’re being threatened But you don’t have the strength to scream can’t Do you ever feel Like you’re being chased But you don’t have the strength to run Fairytale Dream Someone to hold me through the storms Someone to hug me through the nightmares Someone to shower me with sweet kisses Someone to whisper sweet nothings to me Someone to shower me with compliments Someone to say they love me no matter what Someone to wipe my tears away Someone to make me laugh Someone to make me happy Someone who cares for me Someone who protects me Someone who loves me Someone who’ll promise to never let me go Someone who’ll promise to stay with me Someone who’ll promise to always love me Hold me, hug me, shower me with sweet kisses Whisper pretty words, shower me with adoration, love me Wipe my tears away, make me laugh, make me happy Care for me, protect me, love me Never let me go, stay with me, love me Dote on me, make me feel like the only one alive Coddle me, make me feel adored and protected and beloved Make me your beloved, your princess, your queen, your only love Wake up, fool, wake up All I’ve ever wanted, all I’ll never get Don’t wake me up, I want to keep dreaming Let me dream, let me keep dreaming Faithful Little Pet (I know) You’ll never love me like I love you You’ll never love me at all I’m just a useful toy, a plaything, a pet I’m there to cheer you up when there’s no one else There to talk when you don’t have anyone else I’m there to help you, I’m there to give you little gifts You accept them all, barely even a thank you But it’s enough to see you happy I’m your backup, you don’t need me Only when there’s no one else You’ll leave me behind, abandon me, push me away You’ll walk off with your friends, your real friends Nevermind the pet who just wants a bit of affection My other friends say I should cut you off They tell me you only appreciate me for what I give you I tell them I know, I know it all I know, so why can’t I cut you off? Tell you I’m sick of your rejection Tell you I’m sick of you taking me for granted I can’t bear to see you suffering, I’ll always say okay I’ll do anything for you, I’ll always be there when you need me Even when you push me away, I’ll still wait I’ll always say yes, you know I could never say no All you need to do is ask, you don’t even need to beg All you need to say is come, and I’ll help you, I’ll do whatever you want Fetch, you tell me, and I’ll fetch Go, you tell me, and I’ll go Come, you tell me, and I’ll come Your little dog But at least pets get a word of praise, a bit of affection At least they’re loved 100% Lies (Truth?) “Idiot. How stupid are you?” 97% sassy comebacks, 3% wondering if it’s true “I didn’t hear a word you said.” 95% pretending to be hurt, 5% actually hurt “You shouldn’t eat so much, you’re getting chubby.” 90% laughing it off, 10% wincing in front of the mirror “You’re really irritating.” 85% smiling as if nothing’s wrong, 15% frowning when no one’s looking “Shut up, your voice is really annoying.” 70% feigned indifference, 30% crying when no one can see “You always ruin everything!” 50% screaming into the pillow, 50% silent and holding back tears “Stop it, you’re so annoying.” 70% crying when no one can see, 30% holding back tears “You really shouldn’t eat that, you’re already chubby.” 85% refusing food, 15% pretending I’m not hungry “Just go away.” 90% not fine, 10% faking being fine “Are you okay?” 95% dying inside, 5% trying to keep going “You know I love you, right?” 97% dead, 3% feebly calling for help “I’m sorry, I was just joking around.” 100% gone gone gone Too little, too late, always Bye, bye, bye Caged Like a Dog, Drowning Like a Rock, Fly Like a Bird I’m sinking, I’m drowning, I’m trapped, I’m dying The weights of expectations, the chains of failure The cage of fear, the muzzle of bravado I can’t do this, I can’t make it Flying high, pretty birds Free, beautiful, soaring Carefree, happy, free Enjoying life, free of the burdens of expectations Free of fear I want to fly like them I want to be free, soaring above the clouds Soaring above expectations, free of all fear But I can’t, I’m chained to the ground, caged by my fear Afraid of falling before I even leave the ground Afraid of failing before I even catch a breath of freedom One sweet breath, that’s all I ask I’m afraid, I’ll say it now I’ll say it here, where no one knows who I am Where I’m just another sad writer in the midst of thousands I’m afraid of falling, I’m afraid of disappointing them I’m afraid of being judged, I’m afraid of being honest I’m afraid of letting go, I’m afraid of freedom However much I want it My life is ruined, torn to shreds before my eyes I’m helpless, I can do nothing, I should do something I can’t, I’m too tired, too weak, too afraid My life is an endless cycle of expectations and failure I’m sorry, I can’t do it I’m sorry, I’m so sorry I’m letting myself drown, I’m letting them down Help me, leave me alone Save me, go away Go away, go away Leave me so I can sleep, I’m so tired So tired… © 2018 LadyFluff |
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Added on January 9, 2018 Last Updated on January 9, 2018 Author
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