Glass House

Just something...hidden in my heart, though visible to all.

 

 

 

I watch you through my window.

This glimpse from my world into yours is all I have.

You are there. So close, but not nearly close enough. You never are.

I can see you, but I can’t touch you.

 

You say you are not free. That your life is nothing to envy, but as I watch you travel through this world into exotic countries and escape to foreign lands it seems to me that you are the freest person on earth.

 

 

 

I press my hands up to the glass, but I feel like a prisoner,. Maybe a pet can be chained and left behind, but not me, I need freedom. I need escape. My heart, though I’ve been in a glass house forever -my heart and spirit are free.

“Please…” I start. But I can’t say what I feel. I can’t say what I so desperately want. You’re there, you’re real. But you’re not a part of my world.

So I watch through my window, and look down on the world as it all goes by without me.

My eyes catch yours, just for a moment in time,

and through the different worlds somehow, we are magically together.

I see your eyes -they are so beautiful. Mesmerizing. The brown like a thousand years of earth, of forests, of eternal journeys only just begun.

My heart skips a beat, could you be the one to save me? To rescue me from my icy tower? My life is a dream to some, surely, but dreams are only found in sleep, and I don’t want to spend forever in the sleep of my soul.

 

You turn to leave.

“Please don’t go” can’t you see through this haze…my heart, my life, my deepest longings. They are here, so real, only waiting for you.

 

 

If you cared enough to look you would see….I am here, only waiting for you. “Please, oh look beyond the mist and the clouds of gray.” Night is coming, you can’t stay forever, neither can I…please notice me - before it’s too late.

I feel my heart slowly breaking as my eyes fill with tears…“Is it too late?”

 

“Don’t go! Please don’t forget me!!”
 

Did I sat it out loud? Or was it only my thoughts, lost to the wind?

 

Somehow though, you stop.

You turn, and our eyes somehow meet, once again,

My misty blue eyes are swimming with tears, like the ocean on a clouded day, or a sky touched with fog rising from the sea…I cant stop crying. I can’t stop these fears. “Will you give up on me?”

What are you thinking as you stand there in the night? So dark and mysterious, one with the evening shadows.

If only I knew, I could find the strength to go on. But I am tired, and I can’t see your thoughts…“Please, my love, send my a sign -let me know that there is hope.”

This castle of my heart, it’s impenetrable. No one can break through.

Only if you want to…

No -only if you need to. Only if you need me, as much as I need you. If you feel love and purpose beyond this shallow existence of a world…if you understand the meanings hidden within the universe…

 

If you need me like a dream needs life.

 

 

You could be the one to destroy this fortress, to shatter this glass….to wake me from this dream world…..

You would be the one to steal my heart.

Reviews

[Geminair]

wow thats amazing deep and very consuming really impressive writing and i know what its like when you dont even know if you said it out loud or if it was just a thought but your work is a really inspiring way of looking at things....