A life like mine

A life as a nice person helping depressed family members

Living my life isn’t easy at all
I’m the one catching everyone when they falL
I’m the one at night losing sleep praying
While the one asking for prayer is slacking
I’m the one standing strong and sacrificing
When in return I get the you’re strong you got it
But no one asks me do I really? Got it?
No one asks how many times I’ve had to take the hit
No one knows how if I currently hold my wit
Because I’m the person no one questions
I’m the person that always delivers
I’m the one with advice and suggestions
Unfortunately I’m everyone’s caregiver
No one knows how I really feel
No one asks if I need help
No one knows that my feelings are real
I’m relying on myself, self help
I’ve seen dark days where I don’t want to get up
I’ve seen days where I struggle to find the will to live
But I do so everyday because I’m everyone’s backup
Because I actually give
Feeling sadness deep inside that consumes me
Something that impedes me from happiness doesn’t let me be
But I try my best for everyone’s sake
I try to give my life a purpose a reason
But honestly my hurt does ache
Gets worse season by season
But I won’t give up even if my life amounts to nothing
And all I am remembered for is helping