Nathan

Its hard to imagine

my life with you there

But still i cant help but think

it was so unfair

 

I never got the chance

to know you

you were so cold

when i held you

but i still loved you

 

How was it that you

were chosen to live with God

and im still here

im too far gone

 

stuck on this earth

trying to find my place

wanting to run away

instead of running this race

 

i never mention you

when momma's around

she loved you so much

though you didn't make a soud

 

I wish i could visit you

in the ground where you lay

pretend you're running through

the fields as an act of play

 

i hope i can see

you again someday

but im not the good

person i used to be

you're the one who's lucky

 

but someday i'll make everything

okay with my life

somehow i'll become worthy

to walk in the light

 

i'll become the good sister

you deserve and when i

get to heaven we'll be

the happy family

 

Author's Note

i kinda wanted to make this into a song but since i cant sing...and have no instruments lol