30 Things I Wish I Knew Before I Started Cutting

1. Razors are a pain in the a*s to get out.

2. Don't ever let it get to the point where you can't control it.

3. Cuts hurt way longer than just when you're in the shower.

4. Shaving will never be the same.

5. Sleeves move around, and they won't always be covered.

6. The fabric from your jeans will make your skin feel like it's burning alive.

7. One cut will never be enough.

8. Every line, mark, scrape you see turns into a trigger.

9. The scars will constantly remind you, even on the good days.

10. Blood smells really, really gross.

11. You're not sure why it feels so good, it just does.

12. Sometimes it doesn't feel good at all and it will make you cry.

13. You'll start to see yourself as disgusting.

14. Sometimes blood won't stop and you swear it's your last time, but it never will be.

15. Band-aids, Neosporin, and razors cost a lot of money.

16. Sex becomes very awkward with the lights on.

17. Cuts itch.

18. People ask why you are itching.

19. You are too hot to wear a hoodie? Too bad.

20. You'll throw away your razors and the next day feel like a psycho when you're digging through the trash.

21. No matter how many excuses you make up for doing it that day, none of them will be valid. Ever.

22. People will think you do it for attention, so you'll start to believe them.

23. You'll want to stop, you just won't know how.

24. It will tear your heart out when your best friend does it once.

25. Some places feel better to cut than others.

26. Skin doesn't always grow back the way you want.

27. You'll feel like a charity case.

28. You'll start to think more about your backup plan for if you start to bleed out rather than college.

29. You'll get angry if you forget your razors.

30. Your mom's going to cry really hard when she finally sees them.