Therapy for a Friend 4/8/21A Chapter by The Red QueenConversations with a friendMy wife. you ask what part I miss the most? damnit man. I miss the moment before hearing that our relationship isn't going to work honestly I realized at that moment that every memory with her will always be the best part of my life and I was the problem all along I mean it sure did she have some habits that got on my nerves but in the end of it all I slept with a grave monster on my chest every night I cannot even understand the trauma that put on her to never know who she was going to wake up next to every day most of the times hell even I didn't know who I was in the morning and that does too much to someone It's hard to go back and find the version of me that made it safe for her to take that next step with me God help me... and she'd continue to try to tell me and I didn't care. I really didn't. because I was a selfish son of a b***h not compassionate at all without excuse besides I don't feel like it. I never took the steps seriously to get better not just for us but my own damned self. I was so over the top about everything couldn't focus on anything but my own self destruction all the while, I was stealing away all the comfort she needed for her own piece of mind yeah. what do I miss the most... every moment that I had that I could've been a better person a better friend a loving husband I miss not knowing what pain and heartache feels like when the one person who embodied unconditional love has to walk away and we have to heal. for everything I've done
it hurts so bad. it just hurts so bad. © 2021 The Red QueenReviews
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1 Review Added on April 8, 2021 Last Updated on April 10, 2021 Tags: free thoughts, poetry, real life, love, expression AuthorThe Red QueenWicita Falls, TXAboutRed Queen is an outlet for me to express how I feel on a deeper level. more..Writing
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