Wonder boy

It’s here that I started maturing and experimenting hope you like

Spent many evenings dazed and hazed
Bug eyed like a pug asking for a hug
Like a cold dark day after an endless night
It dawned upon my mind
Came at me from behind
Heart pounding with full might
I sat up till the darkness turned to a blinding light


I wasn't looking for this but it Has found me
False feelings have me bound to it
Voice in the back of my head it keeps on hounding me
Cheep wine and empty memories
Friendships build on broken promises
They crumble into nothingness
Trips out to the wilderness truly got me into this
But now has lost its innocence

Lost feelings, disconnection returning to obsession
Staring blankly at the ceiling hoping maybe I'm still dreaming
Every night I think about leaving
But the demon won't let go
Never thought I'd ever let myself stoop that low
It's been weeks since I got proper sleep
I've tripped fallen and sunk down way too deep

Wondering if it's worth it, wondering if it's real
Wondering how long all this takes to heal
Wondering if anything will ever make sense again
And if so I'm wondering when
Wondering if I should have left it there and then
Wondering what's going to happen next
Wondering if they'll ever even text
Wondering if you're my friend
Wondering if it's the end.