Not good enough

Why was she better ? When she never loved you. But I did . With all my heart.

I gave my all to you .
My heart , my mind , my soul.
Everything.
I trusted you , loved you , and even admired you
But what did you give me back ?
Heart break, lies, and destruction .
I never knew what depression really was until i met you.
Can you tell ?
That im scared to give my love away to someone else again because you took advantage of it.
You thought that you could leave me over and over and just come back when you wanted.
I can say that could have been my fault
But when i finally decided to walk away, you want to say I never loved you ?
When i was there for you even when you cheated.
Even when you told me that you loved someone else.
Even when you would walk past me in public as if i was nobody.
But you could walk with her ..
I never understood why you craved her more than me.
Never understood what she had over me.
When she was also taking advantage of the love you are giving her .
When you were living what i was living with you.
Yet when i explained the way i felt
You said you never understood.
I loved you.
But now , I hate you.
Because of you , ive built so many walls around me.
I have insecurities , always thinking im never going to be good enough for anybody.
Because i was never good enough for you .
Yet the one that was breaking your heart, was more than good enough for you.

Author's Note

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[Great Aunt Astri]

You are obviously dealing with painful emotions. You get this across well. But, perhaps if you wrote a shorter version, the resulting economy of words might have more of an impact. But it is terrible when love is unreciprocated, isn't it?