Not What Was

this is not done yet but i needed to put it out there

How there can be so much pain in a picture

to look at a still frame of such happiness

a moment where there were so little worries

not a touch of sadness or concern

to be close to someone you love

wrapped close in their arms

now looking back, remembering only the worst

how I fell out of love

how the pain of realizing you were not who I thought you were

raked through me taking away everything I'd worked so hard to achieve

no excuses, no reasons why  

Author's Note

Please feel free to give me ideas or criticism, this may originally be something concrete in my life but I am not picky on where it can go from here.

Reviews

[ron]

how the pain of realizing you were not who I thought you were
raked through me taking away everything I'd worked so hard to achieve
no excuses, no reasons why

This is the hardest thing in a relationship. It leaves more scars and pain then most will ever know.

[Mae Taylor]

Sometimes ourselves and what we want to believe is the cause of a hurtful relationship and some don't realize this but instead put the blame on the other.

[ron]

I know. And how do you separate your self when it has gone on to long?

[Mae Taylor]

I don't know exactly how, it takes space from the other person and serious evaluation of yourself and who they are. It took me years to come to this conclusion from a long relationship. The only help I could find was in distancing myself from the relationship otherwise all my thoughts would become muddled and I was unable to distinguish between made-up feelings and what was actually true.

[ron]

If I could I would distance myself. I think that would be the only way. Thank you.

[Mae Taylor]

Don't mention it, I wish you luck

[ron]

Thank you.

[Fairytale]

The beginning reads like there could be a whole story behind this. I would love to know more throughout the poem. Great beginning.