Disconnect

This poem was inspired a couple of nights ago because I had a terrible fall out with my family because they didn't support my decision and turn against me.

January 15, 2017
3:53 A.M

Hello,I can't hear you
Sorry you crushed my spirits
Like what's everyone else's done and the only thing I want to do…is scream
I can't hear myself think anymore
I losing my sight because I can't see
The drug you gave me gave me a losing sense of faith

I'm sorry my dreams aren't what they seem
I just want to relax and sit back
But it's hard with everyone on the favor to attack
The poor and wounded soldier I am…I could hardly hear
My commander telling me to get back in the game
I see the grenade falling and I thought my time was near

Hello, come find me in the hookah bar
Wasting my dreams with a random stranger
Who's too busy yelling at his fiancée
Who's cheated on him several times
I need someone to listen and understand
Or lend a helping hand
So find me near the electric fence that dangerous because my life is becoming hazardous

Slowly this starting to get difficult because my commander yelling at me
Stuck in the time loop of wasting my dreams
When they don't believe I can reach them
Sorry to hear you think I am worthless and won't do anything
Don't remind me of such things because I am a pessimist at heart
So go ahead and crush the golden piece of art

Hello, can you hear my emotional breakdown
Over the pain of the blade cutting at my skin
Words so sharp they could be heard over my loud music playing
My commander telling me men don't cry because that's for women and babies
They don't see I'm bleeding and need the encourage to express how I feel