Fancy

Purpose vs. strength, vitality, choice, and free will.

04/23/14

I suppose I've suited my purpose

Whatever it was,

Whatever your transition.

I think on it all.

While, yes, you were

"Honest" all along,

You are not new.

You know good and well the appeal

Of what one cannot have.

You asked me over and cooked for me.

You, being incredibly intelligent and intuitive,

Knew what that meant to me

Miss "But I am simple..."

Bologna!

It had been so long, if ever,

Anyone had done anything just for me.

You knew it in me

As much as I knew it in you.

I came to you...

Your environment,

Your way...

Vulnerable to you.

I should have known after the 1st movie.

I listened and heard you,

The things you want,

And let you know by

Trying to show you

And by giving.

But it's not enough.

It was never enough,

And was never going to be enough.

It is not me you want listening to you

And giving to you.

And yet, out of supposed kindness

You asked me to stay.

Before you seemed genuine,

And now you just don't.

Whether that is exactly or

All my fault somehow

I may never know.

Maybe it never was sincerity I sensed at all.

Maybe it was just a dance orchestrated

With choreography aimed at

Whatever you got from me that you needed.

And now that you don't need,

Or are afraid to need,

The best you know to do is

Stop giving.

If you're going to stop,

I wish you'd just stop all the way already.

The half-assedness and superficiality

Is unappealing and painful.

As for friends,

I've seen how you put off

While expecting high jumps,

Having little care for

None other than those

Able to bear and willing to enable

Your stuckness.

Be this the case,

Perhaps I am not your friend.

Just as you cannot

Boast your years on me

Then deny me priviledge

Until parentally approved.

You said you really like me.

Then prove it.

Fake smiles become neither of us.

 

Then again,

Maybe you fancy being seen

The clown

Over the one who gives a s**t.

Reviews

[kublakhan27]

There are a lot of emotions being put forth here Melinda, but the negativity seems to be winning out...I'm distressed by the final bits of this piece, I hope they are not related to what we've been writing about. In any event this is a powerful piece of writing, and again, I'd say this is a piece that lends itself well to spoken word...I think a piece like this requires a voice to convey the emotion that is clearly bubbling over with each successive line and stanza...I hope all is well with you my friend...xo