Road Closed Ahead  ( 8/18 Road To Summer) 3/7/17

I hate the word hetic
What's the purpose
You're always busy and Im always nervous

Youre always hurting
Misusing
My emotions
F*****g
My feelings

With no Condom

Or birth control
I guess you have no self control
I've haven't been in control
Since I was zero years old

Nil of age
I picked up the bill on our first date

I would hate
To say
You're a hoe but there's  nothing else to say
According to your friends and my teammates

This Aussie Is an issue
Crying at 19 and its the first time I used tissues
Texting then deleting the typical saying 'I miss you'
Well Jaybee I miss you
Tiger I Miss you

Uncle I need you
So used to seeing you

Every Sunday morning
Would text you are you coming
Replying
Your on your  way
The only reason I want to attend church today

Knowing you passed away
But I thought about texting you anyway
I felt like  texting you Monday

Thinking to the days I had Maddi over on Tuesdays
Talking about how we hate Thursdays
On school days
Looking forward to holidays
Sleeping until spring break

Reminiscing on the five times we took a break
I saw you break

Down
But trust me you ain't ever had a break down

Until you hit those moments where all you hear is the cuts on your skin blood sounds

Box cutting
Nutting
On her stomach
To cure her headache

She told me to give her a baby
Thinking to myself were not even 20
She must be crazy
Or maybe im crazy
Mentally ill
Shes mentally disabled
I can't tell but the way she eats with her elbows on the table

Drawing on her tablet
With her favorite painting

I stopped painting
Was told its rude but im still pointing
On the low printing
Suburban late 2000s kids laughing
Hugging
On the last days of basic education
She gave me a free service
This girl I used to eat lunch with is hoe-ing
These snow girls telling me their n***a boring
So shes showing

Me her nudes
Just a sophomore  in high school

She's 2 years my senior
And I remember
Her number

She was 18 looking to f**k a minor
And during the summer
I met this girl who kept changing her major
Walking down LW minor

I dont mind her
If she caters
To every whisper

Listen
To me
Kristen
Stewart
I heard you love Edward

Cullen
Well pick up Bella im calling

Changing

Into a suit

Chanting

Views

At 19 I knew


The Road was closed ahead

I Griped her chafe
And chased
Her to the next Monday

Gave her a chance but i couldn't marry her heritage
Down to earth im not changing
I'm growing
There's a difference
But I'm sure most of you wouldn't get it

Her lunar eclipse
lip stick
Kissed
Several bicks

Claiming she needed bricks

To block
Off
The fact she doesn't want a kid
She's 19 and to me she still just a kid

Going

Out young partying

Well I guess tgis is the best time to do it

You're so selfish
But do what you want in any damn relationship
F**k this

You fucked that man classic
I fucked this girl are we even yet
If I treated you the way you treated me i bet youd love it
Cause these days
We only love the ones thats hurting
Us

Was told
To never chase a soul
But I'll catch up and run pass then get a text from you saying wait up
Get out you need to wake up