Shattered Glass

" A woman finds love that she lost in herself

Dear Willow Tree,

What do you make of me? We pass each other by sometimes we exchange words other times I wonder if I exist to him.. The weather is overcast so I laid up next to my window. Typing away, I heard footsteps toward my door. When I went to open the door no one was there.. He is almost like a shadow.. Today was more difficult than usual, I wanted to hide in a ball and cry. All the emotions I kept away for so long finally hit me,  a wave I wasn’t expecting.  The life I once built was shattered, I couldn’t love myself enough to let go of someone who didn’t love me back.. When I stepped back and took a long look in the mirror seeing what the years of worry and stress has done to me. I grabbed all my letters I wrote to my ex husband.. I never sent them, I think apart of me didn’t want to go back to him… because I knew that if I did I would be broken again.. Tears welled up in my eyes as I thought of all our memories, very few were worth keeping… Sure we had fun, but at what cost? The late nights , the lies, the hidden text messages.. I know now that I deserve better. With all those letters I was going to send to him I went down to the fire pit  in the back porch and burned them all.. I sat under the darkened gloomy skies and opened the flood gates. I cursed the heavens wondering why the universe would let me become the broken mess that was barely standing.. I didn’t care if any one was watching, it was just nice to let go.. To finally become human again, no matter how much I smiled and pretended everything was ok. I knew deep down inside I wasn’t and it was just a matter of time before the glass began to shatter..

” There has been heartbreak in my path,

I still have faith in love

My true love awaits , no more heart ache

Are you a man filled with Kindness & Love spare?

One who is direct and speaks the truth?

Are  you the Man of his word?”