Watching The Window Pane

Can I just wait here

you can talk like I'm there

but I won't come, it doesn't matter where.

I'm through with not following through with everything

any words I get out stay stuck in my teeth

like the blood from your flesh I tore away as food for my soul.

It's only the blind man that knows what I mean,

because he stares at nothing all day

without knowing a color or a shape.

And the blind man knows you and your ways,

he doesn't need to see to know the anger that you breed.

But I as well have no room to talk,

for I am just as unkind.

But the blind man will forgive me

because he sees with a heart, not eyes.

I try being like the blind man,

and try to look away.

But no matter the things I try

you're always here to stay.

Staring into nothing like it's more interesting than you

but every soul that comes and goes

inside this room knows it's not true.

I love your lies

the pain and misery you bring.

Why does it have to be so wonderful,

your trickery and deceit.

But lure me in

and hug me close.

If I fall I won't bend at all

just break and shatter all that's left of them.

Let me lie in bed without the nagging feeling

that your eyes have strayed from mine

And looked onward at another path

more dangerous than mine.

Author's Note

This poem is out of anguish and spite, so if you have any other feelings about this poem, feel free to comment about them, as well as review!

Reviews

[alifeacoustic]

I love the concept of seeing like the blind man, with heart not eyes, and the line "Staring into nothing like it's more interesting than you" speaks volumes too, fitting in much more than the sum of it's parts to a piece that is packed full of emotions overflowing from within, of being done with doing and saying what needs to be said. It reads like the writer is saying they don't want their sympathy, as they are not the victim.
Superb.

[Abby Leach]

Thanks. That is kind of what I want readers to feel when they read this. I'm glad you liked it!

[alifeacoustic]

You're very welcome, and yes I did. )

[Abby Leach]

:) That makes me happy to know someone likes it ;)

[Emily]

Very nice poem!!
Keep it up!