The Voice Of Addiction

A familiar voice sounded from the shadows

Just when things seemed to be better again

Just when things seemed to return to normalcy

The voice was heard again and again

Each time getting louder than before

What does it take to beat it?

This question takes me back to when I first heard it;

It made me feel abandoned and left alone

A pinch of reality that I've heard it before

But this time it was different

The feeling that it left me with was cold,

And it left me desperate�"

Desperate for attention,

Desperate for affection

But the question was left unanswered�"

Oh! Why did I listen to the voice that caused my addiction?

And now the voice of my addiction

Some say that it will leave you alone,

If you don’t listen to it through extended periods

While others say that

Unless the initial feeling that created the voice

Is purged from me

The voice will always triumph

Most agree that counselling is the best way

But the voice still in the shadows

Begs to differ

Being judged is not something you’d want

I’ll say

And I long for it to not see the light of day

Yes, I want the voice to go away

But to leave as silent as it came

Lest it be found,

Not to leave a trace

I pray upon it everyday

Pray and pray again

Until one day I heard it no more

But today the voice is back from the grave

Or was it with me all along

Muted by faith, but did the voice never leave?

Was it because I stopped praying?

Or was it because I never changed

Things of faith, you never mean to cross

For many take refuge under it

Was it now a voice pushing me for confession?

In any case, the voice didn't affect me as it did before

But from the familiarity of it all

I know that I have to come through it

Later on I did what had to be done

I muted him, the silver tongued serpent for all eternity

So much so that years later,

Its existence forgotten

I rest in the shade of the almighty

Who left me warm and as bright as day. 

Reviews

[Imara]

"normalcy" I love that you are using your poetic license here.
Those lines about desperation and having that unanswered question. Love it.
"Being judged is not something you’d want" Who doesn't know that feeling. That entire stanza is great but that line connects to everyone, not just people with addiction but those with other problems to. Perfect line.
I love that you question its ever leaving to begin with,the voice, this is a great poem. With a relateable subject matter, not just to addiction but to anyone with problems.
My only suggestion would be to read it out loud and where you pause for a breath for for drama add a punctuation mark so that way the reader can read it the way you want it to be read. Amazing job. I really love this piece.