Remove Your Illusion (Age 16)

About a girl I liked but was struggling to say anything to.

Okay, so let me just get it out. You're beautiful. Inside my mind I bring you with me, shopping, I know you'd love that, so it wouldn't be dull. So why don't you come on with me, hopping Through my hollow life without ever stopping. Come on in. I'll try to show you around my head, Reveal what I do in my spare time, how I never Even find the time to think of anyone else instead. Take a hint. Forget those guys, I'll treat you better I love you, or do I just want you as mine forever? Do I just want to love you because I think I should? Perhaps I'm just caught in my own selfish illusion, Longing over you, I'd do the things I think I could, Would I mean them or would they be in confusion? I'm terrified that I won't listen to my own persuasion. But I dream of you! Does that really mean nothing? Shut up, my subconscious mind, I know that I feel, Should I let my guard down and risk the poison sting Which would come seeping in? If I stay and yield, And you tear me limb from limb, will I ever truly heal?