Cooling Down

Remembering November 2005....but only too vividly

Cooling Down

 

I could of course

Be bitter

Even angry

At a push

But for now I

Will let you

Decide  

What emotion

You would

Prefer

Me to wear

Tonight

After all I am on

Display here and

Although in

Denial

And still clearly

Projecting

Blame

In my direction

I imagine

You may have

Already

Forgotten my

Name

Perhaps in

Favour

Of some psycho or

Pseudo lover

Maybe a poet even

Of one kind or

Another

I am not bitter tho

Oh no

Not at all

He laughs

On the contrary

I consider

Myself

Very lucky

Okay

I might well be

Going blind and

Senile

Waiting on the

Result

Of several

Biopsies

But I am free

You understand

And sooner or

Later

When I am

Gone and

I do so mean

Gone

I suspect

Enlightenment  

Will eventually

Find you

Then you will

No doubt

Realise

That I was right

And you my

Dear

Were superbly

Wrong

Do take notes

Though

They might just

Help you later on

Surprising as it

Might now

Seem  

The world

Does not

Revolve

Around you or

Your alter ego

Not everything

Is perfect

Far from it  

Take my word

There is evil

In this world

Hunger too

Of course

Plus a fair

Amount

Pain and

Suffering

Even monsters

Yeah even them

So step out from

Your comfort

Zone

And take

A damn good

Look around

You won’t be hot

Forever Babe

In fact you are

Already  

Cooling down….

 

 

 

 

Author's Note

sometimes I remember to forget...

Reviews

[Lorry]

I think the word therapeutic comes to mind for this one Neville, but what a brilliant last line, taking us back to the title. I was wondering if it, the title, would make an appearance, but it was still a surprise how you done it.
Now, perhaps I need some primal screaming therapy in my next write |:)

[Neville]

I must confess, I felt a whole lot better once I got everything off me chest, a good rant is so cathartic don't ya think...cheers mate..

[Lorry]

I certainly do. I usually have mine in the morning, pre coffee. Get it out of the way early :)

[Neville]

Good man.. :)

[Patricia Wedel]

dear Neville... there is so much truth in your wisdom. Cooling down is a brilliant way to describe aging. So kind of you to pen a letter to her memory and even leave good omens in a locket. Yes, I have had a few biopsies... some positive, but chemo and radiation sometimes bring remission... not to mention... Miracles.
Aging is a gift when you consider the alternative. May your days be blessed with bird song and the hope of Spring. truly, Pat

[Neville]

said it before and am gonna say it again.. bless you Pat.. may your days be blessed similarly... Neville

[Dhara_Ditzy Kat]

You’re welcome Neville :)

[Neville]

...... see still smiling:)

[Dhara_Ditzy Kat]

.....Smiling to myself too!

[Neville]

You are a Cheshire Kat aint'cha.. :)

[Dhara_Ditzy Kat]

Hahaha! I’m kinda related to them N 😸

[Neville]

I knew it...

[Dhara_Ditzy Kat]

I must be careful ;)

[Neville]

yes.. or you might have kittens..

[Dhara_Ditzy Kat]

Eeeeeeewwwe!!!! You scare me N! (scoots off)

[Neville]

......... :)

[Dhara_Ditzy Kat]

:) ....... !

[angel]

I hope this is just for art's sake and not accurate concerning your real life, my dear friend. It bothers me to think that anyone would break your dear and gentle heart. Shame upon anyone who would.
If you have no real love, may you find it soon. The lucky woman will be getting a real winning jackpot!
You, my friend, are one of the great ones.

Eye bee leave ewe ahrr won off d burst guise inn d whirled.Fork any1 whoo says udder wise...

[Neville]

an ewe z 1 odd D burst gallz 2..... cheers angel, IOU... N x

[Cherrie Palmer]

Some people only have love enough for one. Which is themselves.
I say it's time to build a new bridge (toll free of course) and let tomorrow happen.

P S this is one powerful rebuke and sounds well earned.

[Neville]

wise words my friend, for which I am grateful.. many tomorrows of course have happened since 2005 and so I can laugh about certain historical events without any trouble at all....ps.. well earned indeed... peace and all good things to ya Cherrie... N

[Cherrie Palmer]

You as well N

[Neville]

.............. :) N x

[alanwgraham]

Oh dear Neville - this must be all too familiar to many. Moving on is the best plan in the long run but it is hard to erase the memories. You've done this in a very conversational way which connects with us very easily. I have done a few things in free verse here (usually when I'm high!) and taken a bit of stick but if it works run with it. Some folk are just too tight ar*****! There are a couple of things to think about - where and if to use capitals and then where to break to the next line. I think the main considerations are, to preserve the sense and maintain a flow that is pleasing to the ear.
Nice work Neville!
Cheers
Alan

[Neville]

thank you Alan.. I am most grateful

[Ana Papaya]

wow, what a snap
cooling down, I love the context in which you have used this!
great poem

[Neville]

sometimes it just has to be said.... so here goes, I'm gonna say it now, thank you my friend for the visit...

[Ana Papaya]

you're welcome.
here, have an h...

[Neville]

How very kind, now I've got a spare... Hey, have a p on me... :)

[Ana Papaya]

I prefer to have a j, but thank you

[Neville]

silly me.. hold the p and have a j instead, on me...

[Ana Papaya]

you are mighty generous Neville, thank you kindly

[Neville]

............... and an N x

[barleygirl]

This is the kind of exquisite rant I used to enjoy in my younger days, before I learned that such wanton releases often come back to haunt! *wink! wink!* You have truly surpassed me in every regard, however, as far as spewing the most incendiary venom here! I hereby vow never to make you mad (((NUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Neville]

NUGs are always welcome tho &... I always do unto others.....fondly N

[Chris Shaw]

Good morning Neville. I hope you are feeling better now you've got this off your chest. Could be taken for a matrimonial, I've had a few of those. 2005 didn't look that good. Sending you very warm wishes after reading your Cooling Down poem.

Chris

[Neville]

Warm wishes much appreciated... these words reflect feelings associated with a betrayal that at the time upset me no end...

[Chris Shaw]

Betrayals are the pits. Funny how you can forgive them, but you don't ever forget the misery and pain they inflict. Rock the boat don'"t they? I've always been a fair weather sailor myself.

[Neville]

funny thing is, I only found this earlier in my box of words and realised that it was originally penned on 5th November 2005... how strange is that... now just waiting to receive a telegram ... a bit heavy, so sorry.... N

[Chris Shaw]

No probs.Take it easy.

[Neville]

always....

[Chris Shaw]

I've come back to this Neville because I didn't give you the credit your rant deserved. Maybe because it punched hard, was close to home and made me realise I have never written anything so revealing. I just want to tell you it was a brilliant bit of writing. I don't know whether you wrote this off the cuff or whether you laboured on it. To me it came across as off the cuff, totally realistic, powerful and deservedly hard hitting. I wouldn't have wanted to be on the receiving end. I think it would have rendered me speechless. Kudos.

Chris

[Neville]

You are so very kind and thoughtful Chris.. I can't recall whether these words took time or were more spontaneous it is quite a while back now.. I rarely write anything when angry, which actually only occurs very occasionally... thanks again for the second peek.. there really was nothing or ya to worry over.... got the dentist in an hour.. have a good un chuck... N